loserbitch

some of my blisters now revealed
2005-09-15 17:55:31 (UTC)

i love you

i don't feel like writing in here anymore. it seems to
create problems. but i'm making an effort like i've
promised.

i'm sorry if the last few entries have been too negative.
that there isn't a balance. i've just gone back to
writing when i feel really bad, and now i feel like i
can't even do that anymore. i can't vent anywhere anymore
except within myself and by listening to music.

i'm sorry i haven't written about our good times, like our
holiday in new zealand. but you must also realise that
our relationship can just be so schizophrenic. just the
number of ups and downs in a day.

i know that we're both trying hard. and i really
appreciate the little things that you do when you feel
good and happy.

i really do love you, you know. and i just want us to be
happy. and to be happy together.

are you still angry? i want us to end this night
peacefully, i want to sleep upstairs with you.

and i'm going to feel really sad about leaving this
apartment, leaving melbourne. there's so much of us
here. i'm afraid to go to singapore. and it's just a
week away... it is a big step for me.. but i want to do
it to be with you. cos i love you.




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