megan

listen to my silences
2005-08-31 17:56:37 (UTC)

pissing people off

first off, i do know you and that was shallow. especially
for you. and put yourself in their shoes. you'd have
assumed the same thing. you always do with me.

one person pissed off, one to go...

i don't trust you. i never have. and i never will.
because you're two faced. just as he was/is and just as
all of his friends were/are. i saw how you stuck by me.
watching me suffer and never reaching out. yeah, you stood
by me while i stood. and you stood by me while i
collapsed. and you stood by me while i writhed on the
ground in agony. you are an onlooker. you stood, and
never reached. now that i am healing on my own, you claim
that you have always been here for me. wrong. you have
always been here by me? maybe. but not for me. now you
are here for me because you believe you have something to
gain. well, you don't. you have nothing to look for in me
other than what i have always been: a friend. if you ever
need anything (that's need, not want) i'll make sure you
have it. end of story. besides, there's no way for me to
know that you're not who i think you are. i asked the
question because i believed i already knew the answer. and
though you say you are insulted and that it's not the
answer, i still believe otherwise.

i don't trust easily. and once broken it's even harder to
gain back.

and with some things, i won't go back.

so quit asking.

final thought: you're just too tired too busy too caught up
with you, to even care what it is that i'm going through




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