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chronicallytrapt
2005-08-29 01:28:25 (UTC)

i don't know

quick run down because i know it's been a while. me and dan
broke up. shocker. if you would like to hear the insanely
idiotic reason we broke up, here goes. otherwise skip to
the next paragraph. dan, who has not graduated, has a
minimum wage job, still has no license or a vehicle to
drive if he had one, and spends what little money he has on
weed broke up with me when my cell phone was shut off for a
week while i was changing cell phone companies. might i
also had that this mother fucking hypocrit has not had a
cell phone for our entire relationship. apparently he
seemed to think that my cell phone being disconnected was
some how a part of my elaborate attempt to break up with
him (because we all know how much power and influence i
hold of at&t) don't worry, it gets worse. not only did he
break up with me after exactly 7 days without talking to
me, but two days after the cell phone shut off happened i
called his house, told his dad the situation and left an
alternate number that i could be reached at if he needed
further explaination. where was dan you may ask? working?
no. taking his drivers test? no. dan was up at a friend's
cabin fourwheeling and getting drunk. he came back from
three days up there and one day later....wait for it, this
is the best part...called his best friend, who is dating my
best friend aimee to have HER tell ME that it was over
BECAUSE I WAS OBVIOUSLY NOT DEDICATED TO THE RELATIONSHIP.
i'm sorry, but WHAT??????????????? this statement is coming
from a guy who depended on me to pick him up when we wanted
to go somewhere. who had me paying for our dates 98% of the
time. the guy who was completely plastered the first time
he told me he loved me and who NEVER ONCE LASTED LONGER
THAN 8 MINUTES IN THE SACK!!!!!!!! did i mention that he
also never gave me an orgasm?????????????????????? this is
also the same guy, who told me in december that he was done
smoking weed but who i found completely stoned six months
later. the same guy who refused to go in for an std test
for me when i had been a virgin and he had not. the same
guy who didn't seem the give a shit for the entire month
that i thought i was pregnant with his kid when i missed my
period! is this painting a rought sketch of dan for you? if
not, might i go on to add that he cried more during our 7
months together than i ever did.

now while i might be able to put about 99.99999% of this on
his shoulders, this was still somewhat my own fault. why
the fuck do i go for guys like this? why do i, who has
never done or had any desire to do drugs, always date pot
heads and crack fiends? why do i go for absolute losers
when i'm college bound and determined to be as independent
as possible. i mean, dan is almost 20 years old and he
lives at home with his dad and has to call up friends when
he wants to drive somewhere. what's more is he never pays
for anything, because it's always assumed that someone will
pick up the tab for him. this turned into much more of a
rant about dan than i had intended, but maybe that's what i
needed. to write what i couldn't say to his face because i
haven't spoken to him since the day i dropped him off at
home after my graduation party. for right now i think my
best bet is going to be to stay to myself for a while and
just concentrate on getting to school and what i'm going to
do once i get there. hopefully, if i can accomplish some
sort of balance in my life, the right thing will just
happen. if not...i don't know.




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