Lost Munkey

Lock Me Inside And Throw Away The Key
2005-08-24 14:22:27 (UTC)

guilty

I hate this feeling of guilt I've got. It's not like it's my
fault that I'm not interested in Zach even though he's been
interested in me for almost a year.

this is what I said to him about the situation because I've
left him hanging so much

ho LD myburritos: ahh look Zach, I know that it seems like I
avoid talking about this and I guess I do kind of avoid the
topic because of my confusion but I think at this point it
just isn't going to happen. I love you to deeeaaaath you've
been the most amazing friend to me and I couldn't be more
thankful for that and I never ever want to lose that with
you, but with you going to Tennessee and me going to VCU
soon I just can't see how that could work

ho LD myburritos: I can't do long distance, I have enough
things on my mind to worry about, to focus on, this whole
college thing is still terrifying to me, my thoughts are
spinning around my head and it's just too much for me to
handle.

ho LD myburritos: Honestly I can't tell you how much I went
back and forth and how confused I've been with this whole
situation because I couldn't tell what I wanted and I didn't
want to get too close for fear of finding out that it wasn't
what I wanted when I got there, and now it just seems
pointless when our lives are just about to speed up

ho LD myburritos: seriously Zach you've got nothing to worry
about with anything, you're an amazing person, you're going
to go to Tennesee and meet tons of people that have
everything in common with you and everything will work out,
I'm always going to be here for you for anything you could
ever possibly need, but I can't be with you


and I need to stop being such a whore. Flirting with
everybody, leading everybody on, I don't do it on purpose
and I don't realize when I'm doing it...oh well....I have
college now....later.




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