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Jenn
2005-08-21 03:26:53 (UTC)

life..

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WOW...i have a computer again, took us
logn enough to get it all hooked up here...oh my goodness,
apparnetly they lost our order for the internet, i was
pretty heartbroken haha, and we bough t anew computer, cuz
all the ones my dad put together were CRAP.....
hey u guys ready for a story?...

our old neighbor calls my mom bawling her eyes out cuz she
misses her, (Cute hey)....and her husband is dieing
(getting old...)....anyways...so shes going through alot
emotionally nad just wanted to talk to my mom which is
COOL haha...but then she comes out with this story, that
the neew neighbour down teh street apparnetly from the
deck sees my dad and paula just go at er in the
backyard... hard to take in ?....no never...its just that
people continuely come to my mom with these stories..and
she doesnt need to hear any more, none the less me...but
im a little more strong than she ...which should be that
way in this case i think....but she alwyas comes to me and
tells them, and then i get upset, and whenever she sees me
upset, shes upset.......i told her im not giving my dad a
ticket to my grad....giving it to evan instead...it would
be more fun with my dad not there then theere....i know
its a whiles away but....i cant even imagine dancing with
him...or....pretending hes my dad....hes not...no dad
would choose a mistress over his daughter........why are
friends so hard to deal with ?...i honestly just wanted
support and it ends up in a huge fight.......GET OVER IT
FOR A SECOND....and just hug me...i wanna scream that to
someone, dont make everything an issue...just hug me...
honestly, cant someone just deal with my attitude for a
moment, am i not entitled to have one.......fuck..i.
should be mad pissed nad if i take it out on my friends im
SORRY..........but iw anna scream deal with me ok?!?!?
just DEAL with it....

my brother moves out sept 1...in with daggin, his buddy...
so hopefully, my dad will go down hill from there, my mom
tells me she took care of EVERYTHING legally, and it kinda
put a peaceful tone in my heart, none the less, its just
money....he has to pay up for us three before he joins
anyone else, (paula...whatever slut)....he told me he
loved me for the first time in a year ....and pretends i
will say it back or something...frigging ridiculous if u
ask me, bu im going end this...

went to a youtht hing at kcc....fell on my knees, felt
god...for the shortest time in my life....

i have almost black hair...

am i jenn?!?




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