Completely Incomplete

Letting Go Is All I've Held Onto
2005-08-20 20:49:27 (UTC)

Mothers

Well, waking up this morning had a kick to it.

My mom found this link, to this diary. Great? Huh.

But ... She didn't take it like any other parent would
have. She did however make me take off my wrist band, and
last night I had a mad urge to slash my wrists open.
Ironic how things work out like that.

I wasn't lectured. I wasn't yelled at. She's more of
my ... Big sister ... Or best freind then she is my
mother. I'm thankful for this blessing.

But mom, if you're reading this, it's not that I won't
tell you anything. I ran to my freinds ... Like any other
normal adolescent. It's uncool to talk to your parents you
know. Haha.

That went over ... Alot better then I would have imagined.
No one is online ... Brennan is, that's about all.

Brennan and I have been getting closer lately, I swapped
sharing all my problems with him, just to gain a little
trust, so he knew he could turn to me.

Being the voice of reason does suck sometimes. Bleh.

I'm pretty much over the Chris thing. Wow ... His wife
must be a tight ass. Jealous? Of ... ME?! What the fuck
lady. Pardon mon francais. Mais tu es un boiteux derriere.

Haha. Everyone seems upset, or distraught that I felt no
need to take academic courses through out my high school
years.

Can you blame me? I don't plan on doing much with this so
called 'life' ... But I will pick up my grades. Might as
well live in the house once you've renovated? Mais oui?

The only things I could ever do in this life ...
Sketching. Writing. The only things I try with?

I will never go as far as to say I have potential. I'm
okay at it, and that could get me by. The art world has
gone downhill anyways. Along with society, and the media.

They say time heals everything ... Not true. It only seems
to be infecting the wounds of society. The whole world has
went downhill, and society is dragged down with it. And
with society, comes the media. Pitty. But of course,
everyone seems to be into this labling and follow the
crowd bit. So if one person falls into the hands of ...
That ghastly media, then all submiss.

Ha, funny to see the world in diffrent lights. As I've
said before ... It's all just shades of grey. Whoo hoo. I
have alot to look forward to ...




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