blkdragon

grounded
2005-08-20 03:32:14 (UTC)

Working on my exit & other shit

8/18/05 Got to work on time, was tired all day. Thought
about Sheridan today and came to the conclusion that we
need to get a few things straight. Got quite a few emails
from Kim today, that made me feel pretty good, coupled with
a full moon.
8/18/05 A bit late getting to work today, left early. Went
to the Asst. Prod. Mgr., (Chuck) told him I wanted to leave
for the day, he didn’t want me to so I told him that I’d
come early the day before and I’d be coming in on Saturday;
he didn’t argue and said I could leave. I walked out of
there before 2pm. When I got home, the kid downstairs and
his friend asked if they could search for beats on my PC,
they used almost two hours of my time; they were buying
beats from some kid in school for $5 a cd. The music was
the only reason they even spoke to me, not that I haven’t
walked past the lot of them without so much as a word.
Since they have money for herb, they may have to pay me.
Louisa called me, just after lunch, she just wanted to say
a quick “hi”. I told her she could call me at 3:30, she
said she would, she didn’t; that’s the norm! I went to her
apartment, finished her bedroom and the hall downstairs.
Her Son’s bedroom, the kitchen and living room need to be
finished; I’ll be done soon. Beautiful moon out tonight!
8/19/05 Was in no hurry to get to work this morning. I’m
insulted just walking through the door, to make matters
worse, Kenny doesn’t do well under pressure and he’s
pressured to finish this job on the deadline; the
prevailing problem is the lack of stock. We had a few
problems today, Kenny reverted to his old self and insulted
me, I could have followed suit and started a battle that
neither of us would win; instead I worked on controlling my
anger. I’m supposed to go to work tomorrow, it’s not a
scheduled work day, I thought I’d stay home where I’m not
insulted. Upon viewing my mood, after insulting me, Kenny
found reasons to come near me; I wouldn’t look at him and
would close my eyes for a moments meditation. Eventually,
Kenny came over to apologize, he’d given thought to the
fact that I might leave him hanging tomorrow; something I’d
never do!
When I say something to someone, that’s my word, I don’t
break it for any reason! He started apologizing, I told him
that he wasn’t handling the pressure very well and it
shouldn’t have been the impetus to be insulting, I told him
that I could stay at home where no one insults me. He got
anxious, “oh no, you’re gonna come in aren’t you”? My word
is my bond, regardless, however; there’ll be second
thoughts in the near future. I’ll be taking my resume to
the freight company tonight, I informed him of such, he can
do more sweating. I’ve already told him that I’m insulted
walking through the door, told him how my attitude changes
(negatively) when the owner is on the floor and told him
that I’m barely keeping my head above water here; so I
really don’t need that bullshit! Told him that I don’t get
paid enough to allow or accept insults. I’m not waiting for
any monetary changes, we’re waaay past that now.
I entertained a poetry and story idea, I’ll be working on
them this weekend also, I also need to login to Kim’s site
today.
I’m going to work on Louisa’s kitchen and living room for a
couple of hours, then I’ll come home to scan and edit the
resume. Called Joshua, he’s planning to stay in Miami, at
least until next summer; he’s working two jobs and the law
firm loves his work. My Brother is taking good care of him!
Only worked on Louisa’s kitchen for a while, brought my
dual cassette player and cranked some sounds, left it
there. I’m home adding information to the resume and I’m
heading to RL Carriers. I’ll be on the job at 5am, I’ll be
pulling paper for the press, I also need to set up for a
small booklet; shouldn’t take me an hour. Kenny will be in
around 6, he’ll be bringing breakfast, I will already have
eaten; if someone’s going to buy me, I’m a lot more
expensive than a sandwich.
I’m going to head to Lavon’s home after work tomorrow, see
his set-up and learn about creating PDF and E-book files.
Just got back from R&L Carriers, seems my felony conviction
may be enough to keep me from getting the job, we’ll see;
didn’t leave there optimistic. The guy I left the
application and resume’ with told me that it wasn’t up to
him or his boss to make the determination, corporate will
run my ssn and decide. C’est la vie!




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