slave jess

Journal of Joels slave
2005-08-18 23:29:10 (UTC)

sub diary 18-08-05


again today i didnt get to chat to Master. i miss Him so
much when i dont get to have contact with Him. the
distance gets to me at times. i wish i could feel His arms
around me assuring me i am okay. i got to this age being
very independant in one way. but since i have found Master
i seem to live a divided life. i am a very strong
successful business woman who does know how to take charge.
i am also that person who doesnt wish to make decisions for
herself, who relishes in the control of her Master, who
does what her Master asks of her freely and openly. may
dont understand how it is possible. it is easy. being
Masters slave is easy for me. for the 1st time in my life i
know i mean something to someone. i give myself and i get
back much more. i never was what my family wanted. i fall
short of their expecatations. mum know a little of my
life but choses to ignore it and hope it goes away. yes it
will go away but it will take me with a place far
far away.

for the next couple days i wont be within internet access
so my diary will lapse. i have discussed this issue with
Master and He understood and gave His permission for me to
complete the entries when i am again able to sit before the
keyboard to open myself to the public. take care all.

i love You Master,
slave jess {MJ}