elliots_skull

elliots bliss
2005-08-16 01:28:40 (UTC)

little jake

i have a memory of you:

laying on the floor you wanted to sleep but wanted to stay
awake for days. you wouldnt let me sleep you screamed in
my ear.

i remember when you tried to be a man and alter your voice
to annoy me.

you wanted me to keep climbing, keep going. i would have
stayed up there for days, and i miss you.

i remember you felt sick, you tried to vomit but instead
you gagged. this i remember laughing at you.

petunia, ohh you enjoyed to carry her, and we all knew her
here she stayed at devins.

your lizzard froze in the cold, and you kept her in a shoe
box.

i remeber when you moved and there was the jew beating
room.

we all went to k-mart, walmart, budget, best buy and the
mall.

i got you that flask the day of snoball. you got jessica
roses. everyone got cord jackets. i miss that. but i fell
apart that day.

the night i wanted to play in the field i came to the
park, and there you were. you played baseball with me and
you hated it, but still you enjoyed it with me.

i saw you at work that day, and it made me happy.

you wanted to paint betty orange and gold, and i am trying.

i came to luckys and you were there, you knew something
more than the others. i had fought with devin and you were
concerned.

looking out of the back of devins car you were so young
little jakob, i miss you.

we all played nightmare at devins.

that day we all were drunk, and you were so weird inside
the store, and i miss your scream. i missed it.

we tried to patch the face of the misfit and it came
apart, instead you taped it.

we went out one night and vandalized the boats, i broke
the switch on your glove box, im still really sorry.

you are daniel johns.

i drew what i thought that you would enjoy, i drew that
rams skull, i knew that you would never hate me. did i
take you for granted? what did i do wrong to deserve you
being dead.

he said.......jakobs dead, oh fuck, what did i do wrong,
what couldve i done right? who knew that you would be the
first?




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