Mia

Mia, the complainer
2005-07-26 15:00:39 (UTC)

I'm BACK !

Ok
First of all I am so glad to be back here. A ton of bricks
just flew off my back here. *SIGH OF RELIEF* haha
Well, here's the story.

The day of pervious entry la madre caught me on some pro-
ana sites and then READ MY DIARY...yes this one, and boy
was that a crappy day. I've never cried so much in my life.
My face was a big bloated red tear producing mess.
I get a nauseus feeling just thinking about it. Th whole
family went into a whole big mess, but it's not like my
parents didn't have a clue; they said they were just
waiting for the day they had enough proof to confront me.
That makes me really upset and feel really guilty. My mom
just went off on me for begin selfish and killing myself
and oh god, if i had to relive those days i definitelly
would not.

TWO DAYS AFTER THAT we all put our feelings aside to go on
vaca in florida. WHOHOO. Yeah, that was actually kinda fun.
WE all needed just to get out of the house and away from
everyone we next. OK we got back and had one day to
relax...it just happened to be the 4th of july. Hung out
with bess bess and Lo at the club.

Then I went straight to acting & voice camp where I learned
more in 1 /2 week than i have in the whole summer.
...it's also where I ate my way to 105 pounds. thats 10
pounds!
Thankfully I've already dropped 6/7 of those nasty little
buggers. Back down to 98/99. yay?

Recently I had my frist meeting w/ Dr. Wall; she's the tall
SKINNY, SKINNNY woman who prolly has a lower BMI than I do.
I HATE LOOKING AT HER. GRRR. she's really calm and all but
the thing is, i don't think I want to recover yet. I mean
I"m still really heavy for a gril with an ed. lol
well, you know what I mean. grrr....
ugh

well, I"m exhasted from all this typing.
be back later
MISSED THIS SO MUCH!
send me a message if you read this or if you have a
diary... i dunno why just b/c

BTW: keep in touch sassy

adios mis chicas & chicos
~Mia




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