Eyes4Guys

Personal hell & back again
2005-07-18 21:54:02 (UTC)

Not sure how to title this

I'm not quite sure how I'm feeling. Tom is at work and I
had the day off today. I was able to make an appointment
with WIC for this Wednesday, and yet the rest of the day
hasn't really been eventful. I've just been listening to
the new songs I downloaded and they just have me in this
extremely calm mood. I downloaded Dredg-Bug Eyes,
Stutterfly-Gun in hand, and Britney Spears-Someday (I Will
Understand) and I really don't have a lot of negative
thoughts.

While I'm listening to these songs, I'm talking to
Dunnaway. Now if that is how he spells his last name, I'm
not even sure. I'm not even sure if Tom ever told me his
first name. I'm just content talking to him. It makes me
feel good. He's someone to talk to about serious things
but I can be silly with him. The IM conversation help me
maintain my emotions and just get me through my day. We
talked about how I couldn't be in a military lifestyle,
married or enrolled. We talked about his first marriage,
how I feel that Tom and I got married quickly and as much
as I want to have kids, I think we are starting too soon
(too late now!), just anything along those sorts.

Tom ran into someone from high school and found out he is
living a few doors down from us. So I walked down to visit
them. Travis Tropolski. He is now married and his wife
just had a baby girl 10 days ago. She is a preemie and of
course she is so small. She was asleep the whole 10
minutes I was there, and I gave them an invite to come
over whenever. I doubt they will, but it would be nice.
Someone human to talk to face to face rather than relying
on computer screens or having a conversation with my
kitten. Well, she's almost a year old now, so she really
isn't a kitten anymore. But it was just nice to have
someone I knew, somewhat, around me. He remembers me as a
blonde, and being a skater. He saw me when I wore my baggy
pants. Although I was far from being a skater. I roll
played in school. I dressed goth, then skater, then a
prep, just whatever I felt the mood for that day.

Shrugs




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