The crazy world of me
2005-07-15 22:49:14 (UTC)


It has been so long since I wrote last. I hate not
writing in a long time and then when I do all I have to say
is shit. So much shit has been going on lately. I am just
ready to explode. I just don't know what to do anymore and
I don't care about anything. I just want to give up. I am
so tired of being a good person to everyone and not getting
the same back. That might sound selfish but that's how I
feel. So, getting fired from Walmart help kick off the
whole line of shit on Michelle. I was kind of glad because
I haven't been happy working there in a long time.
Truthfully, I just haven't been happy in a long time.
Then, my uncle was told that he only had a week or two to
live so I was at his house every second I could be, even
when he died. That fucked with me a lot. I wasn't even
real close to him but it was so hard being there everyday.
I learned a lot from it though like who my friends are.
All those people who say they are here for me aren't or who
tell me if I ever need a shoulder to cry on they are
there. Yeah well that's all bullshit. Not one of them
were there except for times they needed me to do something
for them. So then about a week ago my car was sitting in
front of my house and this stupid drunk fuck comes around
the corner and hits my car and totaled it. The stupid fuck
was drunk at 5:30 that just seems a little early for me.
Not only that his stupid ass is on a temporary license for
having a DWI before. So he ended up getting another one
and was charged for leaving the scene. The insurance
company is really starting to piss me off. They are acting
like its my fucking fault or something. I wasn't even in m
car. So it really hasn't been the greatest month for me.
There is a bunch of fucked up shit that happened a long
time ago with my family that is starting to be talked about
and I really just don't want to talk about it. It all is
really just something that I want to go away and never come
back. Well, I am going to go for now. I will talk to
everyone later.