rath

shhh... it's a secret....
2005-07-08 17:18:09 (UTC)

I AM weeee-urd~!!!

::sigh:: it's been nearly half a yr since i last write an
entry. college life has been difficult. i hate it sometimes.
i just found out that a fren of mine changed course a few
months ago. she changed from Law to Mass Com. it's a tad bit
hard to read law.... damn...

back to being weird. i fell for someone that i shouldn't
fall for. she's a very, very nice girl. very sweet and not
to mention very pretty. the only problem is she's my
cousin!!! i know, i'm crazy. i'm not supposed to have
feelings for someone in the family. that is as good as
incest!! she's my 2nd cousin. we've been keeping in contact
with each other lately, since the day when someone in the
family passed away. i saw w lot of her. the thing is, i've
been liking her for a long time. i just didn't realise it
till last week. i smsed her a lot and chatted with her
whenever she comes over. she doesn't really like to eat at
night, so i stayed with her even tho i was damn hungry ^_^
we talked abt a lot of things. trivial things.

there's this one time she asked me which guy a think is
cute. i told her that no man is cute to me. i thought that
she could guess from my answer that i'm gay but she didn't
(sheesh~). we smsed each other talking abt family and movies
after that. we only do that late in the evening as the both
of us are working. i didn't want to disturb her while she's
working.

a few nights after that, while we were sms-ing each other, i
told her that i hv something that i have been wanting to
tell her for a long time and she asked me what is it. and i
told her i think that she's damn pretty. she was surprised
and flattered. few nights after that, i asked her whether
she's seeing anyone. she said at the mo no. she asked me why
i asked that Q. i didn't actually answer her. i just said
for fun (or something like that). a few sms later, i asked
her whether she knows the reason behind the Qs and the never
ending sms. she said that x know. i gave her a hint. GAY.
she figured out that i'm gay (bravo~). then i asked her
whether she get it. she then told me that she thinks that
maybe i'm curious abt her, thinking whether she's one too. i
laughed out loud. told her that she got it wrong and told
her the truth, that i like her. again, she was surprised and
flattered.

she didn't stop sms-ing after i told her the truth. i asked
her whether she's fine with everything and she said yeah.
she's not homophobic or anything. i was glad. she asked a
hell lot of Qs regarding that issue. most of em r personal
Qs. but then agn, nothing is personal to me. she can ask me
anything. i'm public property anyway ^_^,


i'm really, really glad that she's fine with me liking her
she said that she's not uncomfy with it ( i asked her
whether she found it weird becoz i'm her cousin). she
thought that i only like her. actually, it's more that. i've
been harboring feelings for her for such a long time. neway~
she's fine with it. so, that should be enough ^_^ i
shouldn't ask for more. the fact that she didn't shut me out
of her life is good enough. she has no rpoblem in keeping in
contact with me. everything is ok ^_^

enough abt her.




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