Mark Gittner

Gay Guy juggles his life struggles.
2005-07-06 20:00:44 (UTC)

Another Birthday...

29 now. Dunno quite how to take it. I haven't had a good
birthday in years. I really wasn't planning on doing
anything except sleeping and watching a couple movies, but
allen came over and is inviting friends over, and now I'm
kinda in for a get together of some sort.

I don't really know how to deal with it right now, so I am
cleaning the house some to distract myself. I get so
pessimistic lately about things like this. "Best laid
plans" and all that. I just feel like I'm always waiting
for the other shoe to drop, especially on birthdays.

After all I WAS gonna go to Carowinds this b-day, but
losing all my roomies put a fast damper on those plans,
and now I'm fighting just to keep my bills CLOSE to caught
up. How am I supposed to entertain friends, much less try
to date or even just hang out anywhere other than my house
when my entertainment budget is -$20???

Well at least a couple bills are preparing to be
completely paid, freeing some income. And my student loans
will be available soon....

Sigh.

Little bird, little bird, why do you look so blue?
did somebody paint you like that,
or is it your birthday too?

-Gypsy