Lost13

Lost...In Life...In Love...In This World
2005-06-30 03:55:35 (UTC)

Leave Me Alone...

Well...4 things that are of importance come to mind...

1-I graduated the 8th grade on Mon.

2-End of school was Tus.

3-Chris now has a new girlfriend (Her name is Crystle and
she's his Nexus ~RPG~ wife...Thats all I know)

and 4-Today would be me and Chris's annaversary....1 Whole
year...But no...A year from now,tommorow will most likely
be Chris's and Crystle's annaversary...If there
relationship lasts that long...Chris of all people should
know how long distance relationships will,eventualy,turn
out...Does he really want to hurt himself and other people
that badly?

Well...I know now that there will be no hope for the
alternitive boyfriend..A.K.A Ryan...Because he is,also,in
love with someone he met over the net...On M.S.N to be
exact...

Im losing everything i cared about...How do I feel about
this, you ask?

...I dont...I've felt numb ever since April 18...When
Chris broke up with me...I feel nothing at all...I have no
more reason to...And now that I know Ryan will never feel
anything for me...I care less and less every day about
what happens to me...

I know all to well its pathetic to depend on someone
else...My 'friends' say it every day...I dont need anymore
reminders...But im emotionaly unstable...And Im just not
one aquanted with heart break,loss,pain and stress all in
one week...

I just wish they would leave me alone...

...Leave me Alone....

~*Lost*~




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