Autum's Leaves
2005-06-17 03:13:57 (UTC)

The Rabbit Hole.

"Falling in love, I'm falling in love again...everyday I
love you more and more and more..." LaBouche.

I wrote this really fucking long entry to paste onto
here...but now...I think I'll just write.

He basically told me he loved me today. He e-mailed
me...told me he had feelings for me. I told him I had
feelings for him too, that he made me really happy. The
lie seems miles away.

I'd always called him the guy in maybe I'll
call him my guy. Maybe we'll be an "us." *shrugs* Maybe
this time...I'm just supposed to go with things, stop
thinking for awhile...just get carried away on this wave
of utter happiness.

Forget the future, forget the now.

I don't know what I'm getting myself into, how deep I'm
falling, how far I've already fallen, but...if he asks the
question that I'm so scared of...I might actually say that
I could be..."taken" again.

Please don't let me do anything stupid.

Maybe that's the thing about makes you do
stupid things.

"I can't see you, you can't see me, but tonight I know,
I'll see you in my dreams."