cori

cori
2005-06-09 01:17:45 (UTC)

does anyone ever catch the hidden meaning?

i wanted to go see star wars with jenna tonight. actually
she wanted to see star wars, i just wanted to hang out
with someone that i enjoy being around.
parents said no. it them forever to come up with a reason
other than no, or you have already seen it. john is stupid
and mom doesn't want me to do things and when i question
her, which mrs. becky said is okay to do, she usually
says, "well i was going to let you until you kept on
asking." i know she wasn't going to let me, if she was,
she wouldn't have said no in the first place. i know you
must be thinking, "well how does she know the intentions
of another?" well i can read someone else's personality
better than many people can try. i'm not boasting, i'm
just saying.

i hate talking to them now. they don't seem to listen or
find the actually meaning of what i am saying. i want to
find a person who does for once.
i doubt that will happen. i guess that is what praying is
for. i can tell God all of my problems and usually i feel
better. the power of prayer is amazing. i prayed for so
long that i matthew would come back to church and stop
leading the life he was. it worked. he's back in my life
doing things with me.

i hate knowing that someone doesn't know my true emotions
and feelings towards them. the vinegette i wrote about my
name is the truth. i love everyone i have ever met, i
still do.
i still miss everyone i have ever met. they just don't
know that. i doubt they ever will.

as i write this i cry more and more. toight wasn't just
about a movie, it was about an oppurtunity i missed out on
because my parents are ignorant.
i wish i was going to camp. i don't care about orlando
anymore. i am missing out on another life changing
oppurtunity because my parents didn't try.

i'm going to go play piano, star wars theme. that is the
only thing i can actually play well because i wanted to
learn it.




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