HerbGirl

Thoughts in Green
2005-06-02 22:31:47 (UTC)

Lots of strange goings on

Sorry I have been MIA for a while but the whole world just
flipped upside down for me a bit.

So I met this great guy that I started dating about a month
ago and have been spending a lot of time with him and away
from home and the Will and Grace lifestyle we have all
grown so used to.

This has of course made my roommate flip out a bit and he
in turn has decided that he does not like the guy I am
seeing even though he really does not know him all that
well. I know that will blow over and he will like him once
he gives it a chance, so that I am not worried about.

In the midst of this fun little whirlwind romance and my
roommmate's little fits my grandmother who was diagnosed
with lung cancer in December takes a sever turn for the
worse about 6 days ago. I flew down to see her and know
that even though she is a strong wonderful women I will not
see her beautiful face again.

There is a part of me that is trully sadened by this
because she is only in her 70's and until a few weeks ago
was still very stong and lively. There is a part of me that
wants her to go, so that she can have peace and not be in
any more pain. There is also a part of me who is angry at
those greedy back biting people who are starting to show
there ugly faces now that the money and good s are being
dispursed.

I for one could trully not care because it is just stuff
and although money can make you life a little more
comfortable it will never bring my grandmother back and it
is after all just stuff in the end. Stuff that she can not
take with her and stuff that I will not be able to take
with me in the end.

Too bad more people dont see things that way because the
sefishness is what makes you miss the important things like
my grandmother telling me for the last time how very proud
she was of the women I have become and how very much she
loved me. I would trade anything in the world to have that
and I feel I am lucky to have gotten to say goodbye.

So to you grandma I say this......

In my eyes you are one of the most amazing women I could
know and I am trully blessed to have had you in my life to
show me that there are sitll good people who know how to
love..... For this I am eternally grateful to you




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