Ben

Stuff
2005-06-01 03:17:53 (UTC)

Fuck You

Today during school, my head ached and my body was soar. I
coulden't explain it...I went to Jessa's and then Jaspers
and fell the same way. I got home- It got worse. A half hour
ago, I decided to lay down for bed when I decided to kick
back and go to sleep...Then out of nowhere, I started to cry
without any reason. Sat there until I couldent take the room
anymore and went over here. I dont know what it is, I have
no clue. I just want to sit here and never get up, I just
want to...I dont know. Sometimes its hard to believe im
alive- Especially as of late. Everything is so dull,
everything has no meaning, everything has no purpose and
everything is fucking hollow. I need to smoke, I need to
drink, I need to fuck my brain up if I hope to survive
because theres nothing on this fucking earth that can keep
me from doing what I want to do. 90 days probation- 90 days
from now, im going to smoke more then I have ever smoked in
my entire life. I am going to drink more then I have ever
drank before in my entire life and I am going to die on the
day I said before. Augest 20th. Symbolism is a bitch and the
people who abandoned me, the people who thought they knew
me, the people who never gave a shit will be sorry. When I
go down, there going with me. When I die, im taking assholes
with me. Im tired of being told, im tired of doing it and im
tired of being pushed like a fucking wheel chair because im
free in this country yet im trapped in a fucking prison that
they send me to every day of every hour of every month with
the exception of release for the summer. Bomb the schools,
kill the teachers fuck the officers and chop the adults
fucking bodies in half. Fuckers cant tell me what to do,
fuckers cant tell me.




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