BANKY EDWARDS

BANKY EDWARDS
2005-05-12 08:14:22 (UTC)

EMO DAY

"Every exit is an entrance somewhere else."
- Madame Vorna
Tales From the Crypt, episode "Dead Right"


Tonight was a very emotional good bye for me in my acting
class. I only have a week left here in Cal-I-fornia before
the move. I knew the emotions were gonna hit me
eventually, and it makes sense that it would be in my
acting class because Niel (my acting teacher) and me, we
tight and shit. So saying goodbye to him, that was a
little emotional for me.

You want to know some fucked up shit? That aroggant little
snob Kelsy tried to ruin it. I don't know who she thinks
she is or if she thinks her opinion matters to me, but
apparanetly she thinks it does, because the minute she
finds out I'm leaving for Vegas the bitch is like, "well,
why you going there?" or "wow, thats' cool." But it's all
good: I can care less about her, and she can care less
about me to begin with. But my real friend in the class,
Krystal, well she had the right mind frame, there is a
word for how Kelsey was acting, and that was RUDE, she
seriously killed a very emotional moment by trying to be
apart of something she'll never understand, the stupid
bitch.

And another thing. Granted, some girls have like the worst
sense of timing of all, but there's this girl in the
class, Valerie, she's kinda sweet. I mean I think she's an
alright girl and all, a fan of the angles and all and a
chick who plays pool, whish I think is cool, and I think
she might have a crush on me, maybe it's just me. But
she's been acting real friendly to me, you know, telling
me like personal shit about her and invitng me to go out
with her and eveything. She really wanted me to go out
with her tonight for some reason, but it's Wednesday. LOST
Wednesday. Nothing beats that. If she's been hinting out
that she likes me, I GOT THE MESSAGE.

To be honest, I didn't think I'd ever be ready to love
another girl after what that bitch Electra pulled on me
back in high school, but tonight, I realized I was. And if
Valerie had tried talking to me a lot earlier, I know I
would have tried to see if love was possible between us. I
didn't think I'd ever be able to say that shit, but I'm
ready. I have hope that I can FINALLY move on now, hope
that the next girl who shows interest in me... she'll be
worth it.

Anyway, I have something to remember Valerie by: I took
her picture. I've been taking pictures of anybody who I
consdier to be a friend because I'm going to miss them,
all of them. Some more than others.

Well, I'm almost out of film for the camera. I don't know
if I'm gonna by one more roll or not. There is one thing I
want, I want it real bad, and that's to have one final
picture with Electra as a friend. I want her to know that
the past is the past and all I want, all I've ever really
wanted from her, was to be her friend. I never meant to
hurt her emotionally by telling her I loved her,and if I
did I am sorry, but it wasn't like that shit was planned
or anything. It happenes. Love happens. If I could take it
all back, I wouldn't. I felt that way about her because I
was meant to feel that way, just like Valeire was meant to
make her "move" so to say on me when I was leaving and not
when I was still here. Next time will be better for me.

4 more pictures left...




Ad: