blkdragon

grounded
2005-04-27 02:01:34 (UTC)

Family is more than just blood

Worked at a folder yesterday, no work for the press. The
company is in the process of readying an area for a new
press. Went home to do little and nothing, was supposed to
go to another apartment for Judd, decided against it. Had a
decent work day today, got up later than I wanted to and
made it to work earlier than usual, stayed a few minutes
late to finish running a form and went home. Began watching
a movie called “Equilibrium”, about a society that controls
it’s inhabitants, kind of like “Fahrenheit 451"; instead of
controlling it’s people with tv, they’ve used a drug. The
government decided that human emotions caused all the
problems of mankind and proceeded to make sure no one felt
anything. The highlight for me was the utilization of
firearms as a form of martial art.
I left Joshua watching the movie and showered for the rink,
I finished and prepared to leave, Joshua left before me. I
noticed the ne'er do wells congregating on a porch across
the street, got in my car and turned it around, that’s when
I noticed Charles in the center of the group. Charles was
at the apartment yesterday, I told him how and why I felt
the way I do when I find him “chillin” with the wrong
people, I also told him that if he’s not visiting his
Family; there’s no reason for him to be in the area. He
decided to ignore what I told him, he saw me come out of
the house and go to my car, he didn’t acknowledge my
presence. As I was driving up the street I noticed him and
motioned for him to come to the car, I told him to leave
the area, he proceeded to tell me that he didn’t understand
why he couldn’t “chill” , he didn’t need to understand; he
only needed to respect my wishes. He blatantly chose not to
when he stopped here, he began to leave the area with an
attitude, I had him get in the car and took him to his
neighborhood; I argued with him. Now I realize that if he
chooses to respect me as his Father, it's only when he
wants something, he doesn’t need to respect me at all. I
threatened him with a beat down if I came out of the house
and found him on my block, hanging with the junkies and
alcoholics, regardless of the fact that he may not be doing
any of those things. I know better, if someone is hanging
with junkies, they’re getting high; the same holds true for
drinkers. When I was around people that got high, I got
high! I was very angry, driving to the rink. I called
Joshua and told him what happened, asked if he noticed his
Brother when he left the house before me, he said no. Why
would Charles ignore us if he wasn’t doing something he
knew we didn’t condone? I told Joshua to tell his Brother
he’s not welcome here and when he wants to see him he’s to
meet him anywhere other than my home, I don’t even want
Charles to call my phone. No, he doesn’t need to respect me
and I don’t need to have anything to do with him, Family is
more than the sharing of one’s blood; maybe Charles will
learn that one day! I’m still angry and hurt, I’ll get over
it!
I need to begin my salad, I told Phil not to bring lunch
tomorrow, we’ll break bread together!
Judd called and wanted me to call him, I wasn’t in the
mood, I’ll head to the apartment after work tomorrow.




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