JuggaloPsycho

Lunactic Scriptures
2005-04-26 04:35:17 (UTC)

Fluvoxamine

well i was diagnosed with Obsesive Compulsive Disorder so
i'm relieved that the thoughts i'm having arn't from my
own personal fuck up, but instead is a fuckup of my own
genetic make up.

I'm takin this drug now and it's also supposed to help
with my depression which i apparently now have. i think
it's helped, it's only been like 5 days so who can tell
right? the shit doesn't kick in for like a few months, but
i havn't had those 'Thoughts' in a while or at least the
desire to go back to my 'Bad Habit'. i'm real fuckin
grateful for that. Thank GOD Almighty for that fuckin
miracle.

i still feel real low at times. My sleep schedual is more
fucked up than before and on Monday..wait, Tues, no
SUNDAY! i think sunday....anyway. It was like yesterday i
think when i felt real fuckin angry and shit. shit like
back when i was a kid depressed thinkin bout pullin the
trigger. I'm Listenin to Gary Jules do a cover a Mad World
now.

Donnie Fuckin Darko! now i luv that flippin movie. besides
the whole man in a bunny suit chasin after him, that boy
reminds alot about me. also, i saw that one movie Sideways
lil while ago (overated in my opinion) and that main guy
with the beard, reminds me of me too. Well both of the
guys seemed like seperate parts of my own personality.

Well my ex Jess is going back to Mailwood or whatever its
called. Basically it's a insane asylum. As much as i love
her as a person, it just makes me sad that drugs run her
fuckin life like that. I know why she'd take em and stuff,
but now she's apparently pregnant........i fuckin wish the
best for both her and her future kid.

i need a job. i'm thinkin bout taking up a job being a
comercial Trucker. Driving around and listenin to music.
Gettin too travel and shit. seems like it's right up my
ally.

Well, southpark is on and i'm gona try and watch that.
I'll talk to y'all later (if this IS gettin posted on the
front page here. not sure if that bug got fixed yet.) Talk
too y'all laterz. Peace out homies. MMFCL.




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