*~*Silent Tears*~*

~*~SINKING AND FALLING*~*
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2005-04-25 22:50:29 (UTC)

Another Monday

I am not particularly fond of Mondays myself, but that is
just me. I have never really liked them much. Just a pet
peeve I guess. Emmie STOP WORRYING!!! PLEASE! I got
this, or rather I am working on it. I think I might get
some help though. Talk to a guidance counselor or
something, but I don't know. My mom and dad can't find
out, it wouls just be far to complicated that way, so yeah
that might not be my best option. But I think I do need
to do something. I have no right to dump something like
this on you
guys, and I really don't want to, but I think I really do
need some help. I am scaring myself a bit. I don't
really know where to start though. Ummm I know you guys
want to know what the heck I am talking about. I really
don't want to say much, I guess I could say that I am
dealing with some old problems that have shown up again.
Thats about all I want to say about it. I know I am being
weird, and I am sorry to worry anyone, I really am, but
this is all I can do for now. I know I have made things
really hard in a lot of respects in the last little while,
especially for my two best friends. Maybe someday I can
make it up, but I am not in a position to do that right
now. I am sorry for that, I am just, trying to get back
on track, if I can. I am sorry I am being selfish like
this, and I don't expect you guys to understand. I am so
very sorry, for any trouble this is causing you. I am so
sorry. And this time I have a reason to be. I think I am
okay, I just have some things I have to sort through.
This is nothing personal against you guys, so it is not
like I don't trust you or anything. This is just the way
I do things. I love you a ton! Things are okay. I send
you a genuine smile, and lots of love. And hopefully a
good sleep, cuz I think we all could use one. You guys
are incredatble, and I know I don't act like it, but I am
extremely grateful for you guys! I would be lost without
you, and thats the truth. But really, I think things will
be okay, I just need to finally work this out, and stop
pushing it away. I have a habbit of running away from my
problems. Yay for denial! lol. Umm I guess that is
everything right now. I g2g, family night, we are
watching the other side of heaven. Its a good movie, so
yeah, check it out sometime! C ya all.

Always,
*~*Silent Tears*~*


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