ftrestarr*

Insane in the Membrane
2005-04-25 05:23:50 (UTC)

noW

It's funii, we're the happiest people, we don't fight over
anything...and even when there is a dispute, we always
figure it out. That is what makes us....well.....us.
There's trust in us...although that will always grow more
as we get to know each other...soon our insecurities wil
not matter anymore....
Songs have literally gone from 50 to 1 on the countdown
and into old news...and we remain..I thought it was an
interesting thought...I remember...when I wrote an early
letter...I said somewhere that I loved the time we have
together but it was the mistakes we would or have or still
have yet to make that will define us...and for us that has
defined us into something beyond my expectations. It's
funii...how we can just simply be boy and girl...there is
no other....funii
Who would have thought that a pretty boy like you and a
pretty girl like me would get together and be beautiful
together. We are in love..and that we know. We will meet
where ever we venture..and sometimes..if our they allow, we
can do some of it together. I feel helpless to them
sometimes..I don't know what there is to do with myself. I
get scared...It makes no sense, to be hypocritical with
other's lives...and then it all just gets so simple and
after anger and sadness....it hurts. I try to keep note for
your children's lives to remember what it feels like how it
seems...the stress the thoughts that come from it
all....but I learn so much from it...and sometimes not at
all...I worry that your children may miss out.
I think we lack some patience. I just can't help it. I
never had a boyfriend of my own...or a hug of my own..a
love of my own...a gaurdian angel to myself, a hero just
for me......and it always seems like we just can't get
enough in. It's hard to share you. But to be selfish is a
quality I am determined to shake. I wonder how I can make
myself better...to conquer the "please everyone" standard.
To be a half isn't as much fun as being a whole
anymore...but to perfect the half that I was given is all
that I can do.
For you though...there isn't much. I may not need much.
But as a whole we need many things. For this there is
time...and although it is always cut short.. there is
always more.
I can wish...and have dreams for the other side. It's not
easy being on this side...I've never been against
you...I've never...been against you...not on this side. I
wish hope and intelligence to stop living life for just a
little and challenge things...
I still try to figure out how you always jsut know and
live life and then sometimes I worry that you just live it
and don't worry at all. it's something I admire very much.
Everytime I worry everytime I have anything that I am not
sure of you promise it to me. I have othing to promise you
except my heart. Someday however, I'll have other
things..maybe money, children, a house, a car...whatever it
is...it will always be carded with love. I can always
promise you that. I can promise you many things. But there
is also a promise to self that u have to keep too. I am not
sure why I am writing this anymore.
There's a concept I think I should document.When there is
promise and commitment, there is us. and where there is us
and the mind set we have to stay together and work through
everything we know thatr everything will be ok. Even when
we may not have time to see each other or have to take our
time to do things...we will always know that we will find
each other wherever we land....True Love waits. I'll always
give you the time you need to be you...Patience,
one thing we lack....can save us and there is so much lvoe
with us WOW I just don't know...We have so much time...You
can't buy people's time for yourself but you can always buy
it and spend it with each other and 6 months is something
that we have conquered together there is a lot of challenge
that we have alrady overcome and I am so proud of us....I
may gloat a bit...just maybe.....Something we have to
remember through this though is that we haev to take time
for ourselves...and this coul dbe the worst ending I've
ever written....life is bittersweet...but there's you and
me in the end.....always.....forever...and after that....
So, let the stars fall for you and me...and be...the
one....But, always..be yourself..you'll always be my
hero..PUNK!
I love you to the moon....and back....twice...
Simply,
Your girl




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