Lost_cold_alone

Flying on broken wings
2005-04-21 00:21:52 (UTC)

A flash from the past

Dear diary,

Did you ever have someone that ment so much to you.. but
you couldn't even explain it to them? Well thats what I
feel for Mike, he is like a brother to me, he is kind and
caring. He means so much to me, and I don't know how to
show it without pushing him away. He is there, all the
time, never once has he not. Yes true, we dated once, and
that didn't work out. I sat at my computer when I could,
and I waited.. and waited... He never came back after
saying nothing to me about a month before. I talked to my
sister, Sango, about it many a time... Though all she said
is that i should give up on him. Thus, after about.. a
month and a half, I did. I gave up on the boy that I
thought I loved. I had given him everything, down to my
soul. I didn't want to believe what they said, that he
didn't love me, nor that he was with someone else. I still
waited, even after people had thought that I had given up.
He was my everything, and then I gave it up, for my heart
couldn't take it. Weeks after I got a message saying that
he was back, and his computer had died on him. I didn't
want to believe so I left Yahoo! for a while, out pure
hate for myself. I just tried to move on, and thats when I
became a better person to myself, and others around me. I
got out more, and yet I still felt lost and confused. Now
we are friends, and I am so thankful... That I really
didn't give up on him, for he still has some of my
heart... and that part will forever prove that our love is
the warmth of a cold night, and the strengh in an endless
battle.. the love of friendship and that of a sibling
love... Personally, I wouldn't trade it for anything in
the world.

-Amy -7:21pm




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