The First Tear

TEars: Good and Bad
2005-04-17 18:23:44 (UTC)

I have to be EVERYBODYS Fuckin' Friend!

Dear Diary

Damn I'm so sick and tired of being expected to be
everybody's friend. I try to care and to ask questions but,
some people expect too damn much. I'm expected to notice
everyone's problems and when i don't, I get talked about.
I'm so sick of that! I'm tired of the personal councelor to
all my "friends". I don't mind listening to problems and
helping but, It pisses me off when I "don't pay attention
enough" Fuck them1 I like helping but, take it or leave it
people! Don't complain!

Well, I've been let down again. Mom promised we'd go to the
mall AGAIN and guess who didn't go AGAIN!!!! God it pisses
me off. Well, atleast I MAY get to go the movie with Jason.

I'm starting to feel kind of bad about the whole Jason
thing. I think I really do still love Joey but, maybe I'm
starting to get to the cheating stage. I don't like
cheating. I cheated on Zac with Joey and felt bad. I don't
wanna make it a habit. I think it's awful. I dunno. I just
wanna have fun so...if I don't kiss him or anything...is it
cheating?

We have to go back to school tomorrow. Dammit! I hate
school. It sucks! I used to love it but, oh well. All they
do there is talk shit. I know I've stated that before but....

Oh yeah, I think Mitchell got arrested! Did I put that
already? I guess not. LOL! yeah! Justin wouldn't talk about
it. I wanna know what happened! LOL! I'm so damn nosey!

Well, I should probably go. I don't feel like writing
anymore. I've been in a real sociable mood lately. Don't ask
me why...lol

Ashley

1st ammendment of the day.... I hate being home! I hate it~
I went to take a nap and then dad wakes me the fuck up! I
come in and sit down and what does mom do? Starts in on how
sick she is and how she's pissed off and her feelings are
hurt because I didn't tell her it was ok that we didn't go
the mall! That's not fair to me! I'm not gonna say something
if it's no ok! Then she got all pissed when i didn't say
anything else. She went to bed and I hope she doesn't get
back up! My life will be so easier if she just stayed in
bed! I try to make her happys! I never EVER say the right
fuckin' things! hate beging home! I don't hate her but, I
don't like her either! I don't likeher at all! Yeah, she
does hsit for me but, ya know I don't care anymore. I don't
want her to do anything for me if she's gonna act like this
and get pissed everytime I come home. I always do something
wrong to make her and so sick of it! I'm sick of everything
and everybody! I'm moving to Florida first chance I get and
I'm never EVER coming back! Atleast not to my house. I'll go
to Grandaddy's caus ehe hasn't done anythkng but, NEVER TO
MY HOUSE!!!!!! I hate it here! I hate everything about it!
Aiden isn't even making it easy for me to stay here. He's
being a little creep! I just wish i could leave right now! I
would! Trust me I would! Fuck my life!




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