ftrestarr*

Insane in the Membrane
2005-04-16 08:00:06 (UTC)

sixteen

I guess that after putting all these puzzle pieces
together, and reading love straight from a page, that I
might have something to say about, something.
I went into this knowing that it may turn out to be half
of what it is. Although, it was missing my page when it
came down to it and I wondered how I was going to follow
these amazing soul's and people that live each day in part
because of you. I figure that it's important to say
something from my soul and maybe, just maybe, I'd fit into
your puzzle too.
I wasn't there the day you were born. I do know however
that in heaven where we were before, God split us into two,
and 5 months after me, he decided to send my other half.
This time on earth though, it only took us fifteen years to
find each other. And now that we are best friends, again
I'd like to say hello.
Dear Beau,
I never knew a lot of things. You did. I was always
the skeptical one, thanks for the bravery. I'll take credit
for the smiles though, after all, nothing makes me happier
then yours.
I never understood what a friend was or sacrifice or
commitment, or pride, acceptance, trust, genuity, and other
qualities. I only know now that my other half was the one
with those. Thanks for teaching me to love deeper, and talk
softer, feel truly, and live fully.
Sometimes you're not given credit for everything you
do. Your mom is right, you should be proud because there is
so much to be proud about. I am so proud of you and the way
you live.
You're my perfection. There are no mistakes with you,
and you're strong, really strong which makes you better
then anyone I know. You smile through defeat and you cry
through sorrow.
I was always a little jealous of you, boy. I remember
that before we met, I thought you were way too cool for me.
I don't have much to say about that now, you've humbled my
heart, love. There's so much to you that people could only
guess. I think people should be totally jealous of you, I
still am. You are everything I want to be. You see me as me
and not as a dancer or academic. I wouldn't let that
quality go, it's a valuable one. People admire you, and
want to be just like you, I know because I am one of them.
You're my hero. My song without words. My romeo. My
First, my last, my everything. Stars do fall for you and
me..because you asked them to. You will always get what you
ask for because you deserve it more then most people I
know. The best thing of all is that you don't even know
it...You don't even know it. I could live a million
lifetimes just listening to you and your opinions because
they're so beautiful. You are so beautiful.
So, I'll keep living for you, thanks for breathing. It's
that same air that exists forever. The blissful kisses that
say you're more then words. Your sompassion for things is
so forward and outburting. It's no wonder to me that you
are everything everyone hoped for because you are
everything we all wish to be.
And sometimes when I hold your hand I realize then that
it is the same hand that your mother held 16 years ago, the
same fingers that painted paper, the same nails full of
dirt and interest, the same hands that lead, followed,
calmed, and corrupted. The same hands that have always
wiped my tears and the same strength that carries your
presence. To think that I may get to touch those hands for
my lifetime, and watch you grow into this person...this
phenominal person who I wish so much to be just like. My
best friend, my first, my last my everything.
You never want to talk about you, or where you're going,
you just want to live life and have fun. You always know
and you always go for things. You strive for the best and
you take time to slow down and enjoy them. I always admired
that.
Please forgive me for the challenges I have brought to
you. I never trusted anyone but you. You have always made
me feel safe and you keep my heart all tied up in warmth, I
guess you get that from your parents.. your family..Gosh,
they are the epitemy of family. They love so much and they
laugh with you and they feel with you. Your sisters look up
to you so much, and to be a good example is so important.
They follow everything you do, remember that. They think
you're pretty special. I love to listen to them tell me
stories about you when you were little, their faces light
up and they laugh as if it just happened. That's so fine
and gentle. Nothing is so true then children. Treasure the
time you have with them, I know they treaure your soul so
dearly.
You have these dreams. No one ever dreamed like me...big
and whatnot. But, my dreamer, you always have. Maybe that's
why no one can resist your charm or humor or face. You are
so focused on what you want and for this dedication, it can
only be nurtured. You make good healthy decisions and when
they don't work out sometimes you're the first to admit
that you may have been wrong. Sometimes, when you don't
you'll come back. You think it through, keep that as well.
You make me better Beau. You're my inspiration. You've
never once disappointed me. You make me want to work
harder, laugh harder, feel harder. I'm better because of
you, and if you can't see that then I just may have to
Ultimate fight you on the kitchen floor. You make me dream
more and you encourage me to do whatever it is I think up.
You want so much for everyone else, want for yourself. You
should.
If there were a luckier guy today, he probably hadn't
met you. Because if he did, he would know that no one is
cooler then Beau Christian..
I'll follow you wherever you go. You may have a posse,
a lot of people are willing to go too..just read through
this book again if you don't believe me. Thanks for
teaching me a love I have never known, and bringing me out
of my shell, showing me that dreams really do come true. I
know, because I found you. So, thanks for being a dream
come true. Thanks for living and being you. Always be you,
there is no one I'd rather be like.

The stars will fall for you and me.....




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