Mark Gittner

Gay Guy juggles his life struggles.
2005-04-12 07:17:18 (UTC)

Wow. Ever have your fingers tremble typing?

This is how it went.

Mark says:

Mark says:
Is this Tim?
Trevor says:
yes ... hi Mark .. good to hear from you
Trevor says:
can't talk long ... at a friends house on their
computer .... glad that i was able to finally catch u
online
Mark says:
OMG.... you have no idea how long I've been looking for
you.... I actually paid one of those people finder sites
to find you
Trevor says:
did u really?
Trevor says:
i did that once --- trying to find -- TOBY
Trevor says:
got an old san fran number
Mark says:
Yes.... i missed you. LOL. NOW I KNOW IT YOU!!!!
Trevor says:
i've moved so much ...
Trevor says:
i was very touched by your letter .... my mom forwarded me
the copy too
Trevor says:
i saw ur site ..
Mark says:
Your mom? You r talking again?
Trevor says:
not really .... well we started writing LETTERS a few
months ago .....
Mark says:
A good step!
Trevor says:
yeah a good start
Mark says:
I still can't believe it's you... I didn't half believe
the message, just thought it must be some coincidental
marketing thing...
Trevor says:
what message
Mark says:
the one you sent saying you got my letter
Trevor says:
ahhh ...
Mark says:
I never thought any of the addresses would work, much less
the old mom's house....
Trevor says:
well she's still there
Trevor says:
and my dad's address has been the same for years too .....
i'm glad we're in touch ...
Trevor says:
now if i could just find toby
Mark says:
I even sent letters to old fan sites with you on it, and
tried contacting the writers to give you my info!!!
Mark says:
Toby... SIGH
Trevor says:
what
Trevor says:
u had a crush on him?
Trevor says:
good times ...
Mark says:
Nah, no crush on Toby. But Karolyn would die to find him
again.
Trevor says:
I read small bits of your journal ..... what are your work
hours? when can we talk voice? anytime tommorrfow?
Trevor says:
ahhh
Trevor says:
I PAID USSEARCH 30 to find him about 6 months ago
Trevor says:
too funny
Mark says:
I
Trevor says:
u know i was in NC up until Aug of last year
Mark says:
my schedule is always the same SUN 12-8 MW school 1-8
T/TH 8a-4p F/S 1p-10p
Mark says:
So THAT was the NC addy.
Trevor says:
ok so after 1 my time is good
Trevor says:
yeah ... my ex in wilmington
Trevor says:
1708 pe******* ***es
Trevor says:
714 n 4th street
Trevor says:
1506 p*******s st
Mark says:
LOL
Trevor says:
u must have seen my chicago addys too
Mark says:
Yeah. I sent letters to every address I found, and
called upward of 30? numbers
Trevor says:
no WAY
Trevor says:
did u talk to a guy named Richard ever
Trevor says:
in NC
Trevor says:
did u talk to my mom
Trevor says:
did anyone know who i was
Trevor says:
cuz i changed my name to Trevor a few years ago legally
Mark says:
Almost all were disconnects, a couple of machines, and a
few "I have no clue who you want"
Trevor says:
hahah geez
Trevor says:
well they don't know me by Tim]
Trevor says:
i haven't been called that in years -- even my dad calls
me Trev
Mark says:
Always thought that was a sexy name!
Trevor says:
we have GOT to talk tho ... we have something in common
that I've got to talk to you about
Trevor says:
I'm Bipolar ..... found out a few months ago
Trevor says:
I'm on meds and doing much better
Mark says:
What r u on?
Trevor says:
Effexor and Lamictal
Trevor says:
ONE ANTI-DEPRESSAND AND A MOOD STABILIZER
Trevor says:
oops sorry for caps
Mark says:
I kinda don't want my manic swings treated. I like the
energy
Trevor says:
hahha most are like that
Mark says:
OOH. I still have the lamictal. Made me violent.
Trevor says:
it drains my energy a bit ... just have to gget used to
having "normal" energy
Trevor says:
oh really? were you on an ssri at the time to balance it?
Trevor says:
it's a good drug if you don't get the rash and u can
tolorate it ...
Trevor says:
what depressant r u on?
Mark says:
no ssri. just lamictal... Symbyax worked well, but I can't
afford it, so I'm back on wellbutrin.
Trevor says:
the lamictal is like $100 a month ...but my psych knows i
have no ins. and gives me samples thank god
Trevor says:
so what prompted you to go on a full-out search for me
just curious
Trevor says:
just thinking about the past
Mark says:
I've always wanted you back in my life. I just could
finally afford to pay for the background search at the
same time I thought to look for you again. It's not the
first time I've looked, just the first time I paid for
it. I should never have flipped out as bad as I
did, and I've never felt right without you somewhere,
sending letter and thoughts my way...
Mark says:
Soul brothers, remember?
Trevor says:
wow .... yes i do ....
Mark says:
Your letter are still framed prominently, and no one ever
meets me for long without hearing about my lost best
friend.
Mark says:
My one REAL regret.
Mark says:
ONLY
Mark says:
This ought to rank a journal entry tomorrow LOL
Trevor says:
wow ... remind me which letter
Mark says:
From embassy suites in Oregon. You sent me a leaf, which
is still with the letter
Trevor says:
oh wow ..... yeah .,.... when is it dated
Trevor says:
i must have been on a layover w/ united
Trevor says:
oh yay i've always wanted to be mentioned in someone's
journal/blog
Trevor says:
my site is [name removed]
Trevor says:
to get to main page (still under construction) just keep
clicking on the DOT right before "cc" to get to my poetry
page n stuff
Mark says:
no date on it, and right next to it is a x-mas card from
the same year.
Mark says:
Better believe I'll see the site.
Trevor says:

[name removed] at gay.com
Mark says:
Gods, Trev, I've been through so many changes since
Jason and I broke up a few years ago. THE DRAMA with my
family!!!!
Mark says:
You would laugh, cry, and it would make one FABULOUS
series for showtime!
Trevor says:
oh ... our lives ..... absolutely
Mark says:
Nicely set up website! It fits you somehow.
Trevor says:
thanks buddy
Trevor says:
i haven't done anything with it for like 2 years ,.. just
keep renewing the address
Mark says:
It takes me a couple months between updates for me, so you
aren't the only one without time, and/or motivation
Trevor says:
so are u manic these days and lovin it hehee
Mark says:
unfortunately not too often. It has changed somewhat with
the welbutrin. Not so much useful energy, and more
TENSION and sleeplessness
Trevor says:
got the sleeplessness here ..... and frustration and
general tiredness ..... but hey listen
Trevor says:
i gotta get off this 'puter
Trevor says:
let's chat voice 2morrow rh?
Trevor says:
call me when you get home from work and in relax mode
Trevor says:
910-233-6444 cell
Mark says:
Yes.. and Tim/Trev ... I'm sorry about the past.
Trevor says:
aww Mark that's sweet thank you for that
Trevor says:
it's all ok .....
Trevor says:
I'm glad u reached out very glad
Trevor says:
u are my family ... I've always thought that and have
always remembered u fondly my dear friend ...
Mark says:
family. Agreed. Talk tomorrow?
Trevor says:
YES
Mark says:
K.... Thanks for this. Goodnight Trevor.
Trevor says:
g'nite M ....


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