Elizabeth

Elizabeth M.
2005-04-11 03:58:12 (UTC)

sorrow

I can't say much anymore. I found that someone wrote to me
in my journal today. I am unsure who that was but I think
it was Mark. I just wished that he would call me and we
could return to what we did have. I guess I don't move on
because I am hoping that one day that he would just pick up
the phone and say " Hey Babe, I fucked up, can you forgive
me? I love you still and I want you back", But I am unsure
if he will ever do that. Maybe he has moved on in his life
and maybe he doesn't want me in it. I just don't
understand. When will I ever figure it out? When will it be
my turn for happiness? To find that special one in my life.
He never spoke about me and never wrote about me like he
did w/karen, why? What was it about me that wasn't right,
that made him not want to be w/me? Why am I always thinking
about him? And Why am I always hoping that he would see the
light and come back to me. HOPE!! I guess I have hope for
him.
Ask me if I am truely happy in my life right now and I'll
tell you HELL NO!! I try to think and be positve so I don't
break down, Inside I am filled w/hurt. But 99% of the time
you will never see that from me( the hurt). Like I said
before I am looking for the other half of me/and until then
I will continue to wait for him.




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