adinasgirl

AdinasGirl
2005-04-10 05:15:27 (UTC)

Being a girl

hey okay i feel like im in a deeper hole then i was before.
i am really emotional today, i hate being a girl. so i
called justin last night asked him to do something, an he
was like "no im gonna hang out with my friend tongiht."
okay
kool what ever. cuz i was hanging out with my girls too.so
i
called him later on that night. and he was getting ready to
go runnin, so i talk to him for a lil bit but he said that
he wouldnt be able to do n e thing this weekend. but i jus
dont want to give up hope on him, so i called him again
tongiht twice but he didnt answer at all. then about 9:00 i
called him on my friends cell phone and answered he said he
was sleeping all day cuz he didnt feel good, but then y did
he answer to my friends cell phone and not to mine? so my
question to u is do i trust him? maybe he was really
sleeping? idk im just really afraid of gettin hurt again
like i did by adam ya know. he told me that he has a lot of
crap goin on and hes really buzy. i can understand that but
i asked him to do sumthin tomorrow night but he didnt know
about his plans, and next weekend is his prom so he is goin
with that other girl that me asked before i came in to the
picture. ouch he said he did like her but things between
her
n him wouldnt work out b/c shes moving...okay so that kinda
asks were do we stand. even tho i havnt known him very
long.
idk i jus feel like im at a loss. tongiht i saw my other
ex-bf,mm let me tell u it brought back a lot of memories. i
jus want somone who i can sit up all night and talk to.
someone who wont break my heart and is worth my time b/c
they want to be with me unlike all these other guys. i jus
wanna find the right guy even at this young of age. i
depend
on love, i seem to have someone always by my side. i love
the feeling of it. i dont think my heart can take anymore
let downs.




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