Jecka

ICA
2005-04-10 03:59:27 (UTC)

I dunno

Does it hurt you too? I come running when you want me here,
when you want me to I disappear......

So you told me that I would wake up in the morning and
realize that I was just in a fantasy dream. Nope, I am still
there, and more scared than I was before. It eats away at
me knowing that I have said the things I did, while I was
drunk. People say drinking is a truth serum. If that was
the truth, then I'm sorry...Read and reread it, because that
doesn't come by me easy. I am a stubborn girl, yet I hate
that you are mad at me. I keep this cycle going, when all I
know is that I should just walk away. It is just as much
your fault as it is mine. If you don't like how things are
when we hang out, then don't, stop trying, and let go.
Walking away now, would be what someone who really cares
does, to stop all the pain. I am going to do that now, and
save both of us the trouble. You said to grow up and act my
age. Well, I am, I'm walking away and trying my hardest not
to look back. My apology meant nothing to you obviously. I
will be fine, it sucks that things turned out this way. Just
remember that you said it first. You don't know me as well
as you think you do.

Ok enough of that....


On another note, it was B E A UTIFUL outside today =)I was
out there all day, read and did laundry. Went with Ravi and
Justin to go see Kat perform. You go girl, you did a
wonderful job like usual. ;) I even had the honor of the
Hickey family taking me out for a bite to eat with them.
Love them! Justin is teaching me a whole new language..haha
traf. Now it was a short day of nothing but chill time, so I
LOVED MY LIFE!!! By the way, Thanks to Shena and Gibby for
leaving me a message!!! haha




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