The Muffin Man

My Favorite Courdaroys
2005-04-08 01:28:57 (UTC)

AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH

I kinda wanna just rip someones head off right now. Not
literally but ya know verbally. I would love to just let
out all my frustration. It would be great. But
noooooooooo. I have to be the nice guy. I have to just
be frustrated and be the one whos plans for the weekend
are ruined. *SCREAMS* I had to wait to see if you could
do something saturday. She said ask wenesday. She
conviently wasnt on. Now everybody has plans for saturday
except me. I dont know if she has plans. CAUSE I STILL
HAVEN'T TALKED TO HER!!!! Go figure. She is supposed to
be my friend, but everytime we are supposed to do
something she ends up bailing. Its not cool at all. Its
getting really old, and I'm starting to think she was
right about the me secertly hating her. Its just I didn't
know till I finally realized its like shes using me for
when its good for her and nothing else. AUUGGHHHH. If
you are online but you arent there use a fucking away
message. What is wrong with you. Im feeling quite
irritated. And I have something in common with my
favorite rock singer, Aaron Barret. We are both manic
depressive. Woo hoo. Sadly that is the highlight of my
day. My mom forgot she claimed me as a dependent so I
lost 310 dollars on my federal return, and know instead of
getting 69 dollars from the state, I owe the 130 fucking
dollars. Glares at government. It is much easier to
write in this journal than it is my livejournal. Maybe
cause I've had it so long. I don't know. I've just got a
lot of pent up anger tonight. *Screams again* *Hits
things* Arrrghhh I just want this whole thing to work its
self out. I am so tired of feeling used. Its not fun.
She hasn't even supported my new crush. I told her and
she was like oh, and that was it. She should be happy but
nooo. Nothing. I don't get it. I'm supposed to be there
for her 24/7 but she can't be there for me. Im gonna go
cause I think I could probably bitch till six in the
morning. And I don't think anyone would like to see that.

Later
-Matt-