Metallicminds

The Metallic life
2005-04-05 03:05:58 (UTC)

Entry 25: Family

Family life isn't so great after all. My mother isn't too
fond of me. She hates me, and though she's too much of a
coward to admit it, I know. She bought my brother a new
car, pays for his college and is willing to pay for a dorm
room for college next year. When I ask or pay for something
that is of less value, my mother tells me I'm immature for
wasting my money on such things. Sorry but I'm 20 years
old. I have to eat, I have to worry about how I'm going to
pay my own way into college, on top of that I don't have a
car. I'm doing my best to stretch my $20 a week on food,
college and enough to get me on two buses and two light
rail trains just to get home. 20 friggin dollars, none the
less do I have enough to move out of the house to have my
own place. And I'm struggling trying to get a job so I can
fully support myself. Unlike my brother Jonathan, he had
minus $2000 in his bank account, spends his money on fun
stuff when he knows he needs to be spending money on his
college education and gas to keep his car going and now a
traffic ticket that he got. Yet I'm a bad guy because I
didn't wash that one cup that was in the sink. Also, my
brother can lie about me doing something and my parents
will take his side without asking any questions about the
issue. My father is the same story, he's selfish. Doesn't
really care what happens on my account. He'd rather sit
around the house and complain how he's tired and would
rather sleep all day or use his diabetes as an excuse not
to do anything. I can't watch T.V. in the same room with
him because he can't stop shooting his mouth off about
whats going on the T.V. and when I point it out to him,
that I'm trying to watch T.V., he makes fun of me gives all
the energy he's got to make me feel stupid. They all have
both a suporiority and ego starved problems, and I have to
live with it. Which is why I'm planning on moving away as
far as I can from these people and completely cutting off
all contact they have with me. Once I'm gone, I don't want
to come back anymore. If not I can't stand it, I don't know
how I've gotten this far without committing suicide living
with these people. Seriously, it's that bad.




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