blkdragon

grounded
2005-04-04 01:46:55 (UTC)

Assets and Liabilities

I was awake when Shawn and Toya returned home, they weren’t
expecting that. I asked how things went, they said they
enjoyed themselves, apparently it was a recruiter’s thing
for possible new recruits; a show for the unwary. Joshua’s
been talking to Sun about being in the military and the
social implications thereof, I can’t say he’s wrong in his
assertions, but I don’t think it’s the time for life
changing discussions with Shawn. I tried calling Patty this
morning, got her answering machine, we’ll see if she
arrives in Latham today? Patty called, something happening
with her boyfriend’s family, she’ll see me on Tuesday.
4/3/05 Tried calling Louisa this morning, the phone was
busy. Checked my accounts, BB seems to have frozen my
assets, this is due to the online payment made; won’t be
doing that anymore. Louisa told me that she stayed home
this weekend, that surprised me, I thought she went to her
Mother’s. She runs the gamut, in terms of temperatures in
the relationship, from hot to cold; guess I’ll need to be
able to identify the right time for the right things.
Kim had been leaving mail for me, wondering where I was,
etc; keeping me up to date with the problems inherent in
her marriage. Getting tired of hearing about her problems,
she needs to make a decision and hold true to it. I told
her about Louisa, she wanted to know how long I’ve known
her and if I knew her when she and I were talking, I let
her know the truth of the matter; not that I owe an
explanation to a married woman. She now knows that she
needs to do something, her window of opportunity is
closing, Louisa needs to do something also, her window of
opportunity won’t stay open without effort on her part. I
wasn’t going to tell Kim about Louisa, really wasn’t any of
her business, just thought she should know that she isn’t
my priority. She needed to have an address for her debit
card, I let her use mine, she thanked me; I said what are
friends for? Her response was, “friendship now and love
begin later....?” , seems she’s bordering on being guilty
of the same thing she wants to charge her Husband with,
infidelity. Regardless, she can’t hold me in reserve, she
wanted to end our conversation before her Husband got home;
their relationship isn’t based on love and trust. She’s
still trying to come to see me and she doesn’t want what
she’s going through with her Husband to put a stop to that.
I’m not putting my life on hold for her, should Louisa and
I get closer than we are, there won’t be any way for Kim to
see her plans come to fruition.
Went skating today, Dean arrived with Nikki, she used to
babysit my sons. Baby got back! Nikki said hello and used
my name, I couldn’t remember hers and had to ask Dean, he
reminded me; I also remembered that she doesn’t want to
relate to Black men anymore and wondered why she was
hitting me up? Dean won’t have an intimate relationship
with her, for reasons all his own. I ended my session, a
few boys sat and questioned me, Nikki found her way over
and asked about my sons; she hovered near. She wanted to
supercede the boys to get my attention, asked for a piece
of gum, I gave it to her and continued talking to the boys;
she eventually moved on. I’d heard that she just had a
baby, I’m not down for whatever she has in mind, my hands
are full at the moment. I keep looking for Diana, she
hasn’t been around in a while. I did see Cassandra today,
she had friends with her, her Father came over to talk to
me for a minute; he asked if I’d been watching the NCAA and
I said I’d turned off the television 2 years ago this
coming November!
I’m starting the apartment tomorrow, I’ll work until 7:30
and pick Louisa up from Dialysis, I won’t return to the
apartment until Wednesday night; looks as though the plan
may be to do 3 hours a night/3 times a week. I guess I’ll
max out on Saturday, Judd’s shit won’t be a higher priority
than Louisa. Her stock has risen!




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