tinkerbell

Dotti
2005-04-01 07:08:37 (UTC)

change of plan

ok , ya know how i said i wasnt gonna go back and see
kevin all night? that if he wanted to see me he would come
to me? well it sorta worked that way. i did exactly like i
thought i would though. see today was pay day and when i
went in to get my check he came in right after me and i
didnt know it, and he asked me if my phone was messed up.
i was like, no. and i didnt smile. so i know he knew
somethin was wrong right then because i always smile when
i say somethin to him. he even said that is one of the
things he liked about me is unless somethin is wrong i
always smile. and anyway, he was like, yeah i got off at
2:30 last night and i tried to call as soon as i got home,
but your phone was messed up or something cause it kept
sayin it was out of service. i guess i will never know if
he was tellin the truth or not. i mean, i think if he
would have been liein he would have at least given me a
wrong number when he told me the number he had been
calling. but he didnt , when i asked what number he
dialed, he gave me my number. so i dont know, i mean the
telephone guys have been workin on the lines everyday down
here, i guess i will never know if he was tellin the truth
or not. but i saw him alot today. when i saw him then i
asked him if he wanted me to come back there on my first
break like i always do, and he said yeah i do! why wouldnt
i? why did you even ask?. anyway. and then he said and im
sorry if i havent talked to ya much. he said i have not
been ignorin you or anythin. i guess i just dont know if i
should believe him or not. its hard to say. but. one thing
i do know. even if he works late, he had an easy EASY
night, so IF he calls tonight, if he comes up with an
excuse that he is too tired or somethin, i know he is
lieing so he wont have to come see me. i just dont really
know what to think. im totally confused. and when we were
out side talkin after i got off, eddie, this really big
nasty lookin dude, he came up and was puttin his arm
around me and sayin hey baby and all kinds of c rap, like
back that ass up and stuff, and kevin didnt say a word
about it. like he didnt care if guys said that to me. and
if thats the truth, then that means he dont care about me.
witch, i mean i dont expect him to care a whole lot about
me already anyway, i mean hey we have only been goin out
for a whole two weeks. and we havent really had much to
say to each other unless its about work. we havent had
much time to get to know each other. or well, at least he
dont know me that well. i bet he doesnt even know how to
spell my name. or anything like that. but. hopefully, it
will work out and we can last a while, and i will stop
feeling so goofy about the whole situation. i dont know.




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