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My Thoughts
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2005-04-01 02:08:21 (UTC)

Do women fear love and attention?

My conscience is starting to kick in. I know. I can't have
both of them at the same time, even though Mr. Peru is
well, in Peru.
People often say that long-distance relationships don't
last. Well I think differently. If two people are committed
to making it last, and the love is there, its strong, its
present...then there should be no trouble. The problem is
that in my case, the love is there for him (its REALLY
THERE) but is it for me? I thought it was.a couple of weeks
ago I would have said it was...but a couple of weeks ago I
didn't have Mr. Salsa. And even though I know Mr. Salsa
isn't really the type of guy that I see myself in the
future...but he's still sweet, caring, mature. But what guy
isn't? Mr. Peru...that's another story. He's like my
spanish Joe. He would do anything for me, and maybe that's
my problem. He's willing to move here....he already started
doing the paper work so he ca go to Miami. What is my
problem?? The same thing happened with Joe...Am i not ABLE
TO COMMIT!?!?!?!? Damn....I don't know what to do. Should i
break up with him? Do I want to let go of everything that
I've felt, the future, taking risks, making the effort, the
sacrifices to make it work? Do I want to say in the end "
It was worth the effort..." or is this something I will
regret?

WHY IS IT THAT WHEN A GUY IS SUPER NICE, SUPER SWEET,
WILLING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING (WITH HIS HEART ALREADY GIVEN
TO ME) THAT I BACK AWAY??

AND WHY THE HELL DO I FEEL SO ATTRACTED TO A GUY WHO'S HAD
ALOT OF EXPERIENCE AND WHO IS MORE ORE LESS INDIFFERENT TO
HAVING ME AS A GIRLFRIEND? I AM JUST A GIRLFRIEND TO
HIM..ONE OF MANY...

I am too confused.


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