fuck it all!!!!!!
I can't believe this is happening! It's less than 2
days from the time I am to meet Dan. I am a fucking fool
for thinking this would work. I don't know if I'll ever
get a chance to really know him the way i want to know
him. My life sucks. Seems like everytime it starts to get
better I end up on a dead end road. I can't help but
wonder why things happen the way the do. Seem just when I
think things couldn't possibly get worse than they are,
they do. Only ten times worse than I originally thought.
I hate my life. Since meeting Dan everything seemed to
finally be ok. But just like everything else, it too has
been blown apart. My uncle is a total prick for doing what
he's done. I hope he can see the pain he's caused. Now I
feel there's nothing for me. What was I thinking? How
could I possibly think the hell I've been living for so
long would have a happy ending. Just another of lifes damn
temptations I guess. I don't know if I will ever get
another chance to be with Dan, but I will try to cling to
positive thinking. He is the only reason for my many
recent smiles and tears. Happy tears of course, but then
turning to sadness at night when I must say goodbye.