Sabastian&Niki

The amount of pills I'm taking counteracts the booze I'm drinking

I hate myself today. i try to forfill the emptyness inside
me with meaningless sex, but all it does is confirm that im
a whore.

I long so much for these assholes to leave me alone. yet im
the one that calls them late at night, when im drunk at home
by myself again.

I put on such a fucking happy face everyday of my life and
its all so superficial. I don't care what they think, i dont
listen to what they say.

Don't think 'cos i understand - i care.
Don't think 'cos i'm talking - we're friends

talk me down, safe and sound,
too strung up to sleep
wear me out, scream and shout
swear my time's never cheap

i fake my life like i've lived too much
i take whatever you're given - not enough

take me down
6 underground
the ground beneath your feet

my best friend iris stayed over last night. she slept in my
bed and woke up in the middle of the night and kissed me
passionatly. Shes got a b/friend and never done anything
with a girl b4, apart from the time we had a 3some with
Jordan. which she freaked out about. so why would she do
that??? and why did i take advantage of the situation? why
couldn't i just say no to her? or anyone for that matter?

why am I so lonley all the time when there are so many
people around me and in my life?