-karma's payback-

-the good times are killing me-
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2005-03-28 07:42:42 (UTC)

-conversations of addiction-

looking at this filth stained train wreck i used to call
my life...
trying to reassemble anything that may have survived...
sixty days ago i didn't give a shit about myself...
i didn't give a fuck about anything or anybody else...

but now...i'm back in control...
this is my life and i want everyone to know...
i'm still here and i'm fighting with every breath i take
not to make the same mistakes...
but i'm only human...
i don't know how much more of this i can take...

sobriety is so confusing...
i'm sick of feeling fucked up and clueless...
i'm trying so hard to finish what i started...
but sometimes it just feels so goddamn useless...

i just need someone...
someone who loves me enough...
someone to help me be stronger...
i just need someone...
'cause i can't do this alone...
not for very much longer...

i don't want to be...
my own worst enemy...
anymore..!

d.c.
2003


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