blowabubble24

I never said I'd take this lying dow
2005-03-24 03:19:16 (UTC)

nevermind last entry

oh dear. i find that i love him more than sleep. its bad,
because now im tierd all the time because i stayed up late
thinking about him, or holding the bear he gave me, or
reading a poem he wrote me, or holding the red heart shape
box that i couldnt bring myself to throw out when all the
chocolate was gone from it. its so wonderful, and so scary
at the same time. i havent written a sappy journal entry
in over a year now, since i broke up with my last serious
boyfriend. even when my currant one and i broke up the
first time, i didnt write in a journal. i went running,
and listened to emo. see how far that got me. i mean, with
the whole thing with jon the next day. whatever i wont
write about that, it makes me sad to think i could have
hurt the one i love. im glad he wont ever know. i dont
know maybe i'll tell him one day, if it comes up. same
with telling him about what happened at semifinals. its
not that im unfaithful, just easily distracted. anyway i
could never forget this one. hes everything i could have
ever asked for in a guy and then some. its a freak.




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