violetmal

Malissa's Life
2005-03-23 00:16:53 (UTC)

My life is not supposed to be like this

SO I'm pissed off

Not going to go into it... But my boss freakken pissed me
off. She barely comes into the office anymore, but when she
does, she sure knows what to say to make me mad. And it's
really shitty because she tries to do it in a nice way, but
I know exactly what she's doing. I AM UNDERESTIMATED AND
UNDER-FREAKKEN-PAID!! I run the fucking office!!!!! AND FOR
WHAT?? I've been there for almost 5 goddamn years now, and
what to I have to show for it!! A half-assed healthcare plan
and a measly $300 a week after taxes. Sure I get the glamour
of traveling first class around the country on thier
expense... but is it really worth it?? I can't share that
with my friends.... and I get lonely...

Last week was fairly interesting... I partied 5 days
straight... Tuesday I went to Applebees with Eric and
Aleshia and then Chris called me and i met up with him and
some of his friends out at the Chapel Hill side of Lake
Tyler. I met this chick Laura who was pretty cool. She
didn't know anyone there either, so we stuck by eachother
and had a good time. Some guy thought he was being funny and
started singing songs about me and Laura (aka, the sluts on
the tailgate). He ended up pulling his dick out of his
pants... I was like "Did that really just happen?? This guy
is a fucking idiot!!!!" He ended up apologizing after I made
friends with the guy who owned the lake house. heheheh his
name is Tate and he is one of the most back-woods country
bumpkins I have ever met... Reminds me of Larry the Cable
Guy. Really a good guy though and he gave me beer. Another
cool thing about Tate is that we have the same birthday!!

Anyway, the next night I went to Longview with Aleshia and
to go to Ladie's night at this nightclub called Graham's. I
met up with this guy, Jonathan, who I hadn't seen since
christmas. He's going to med school at Texas A&M in College
Station, but his grandparents live out here in east Texas,
so whenever he's got some free time, he comes out here. Last
time he was here, he drove to Tyler to see me. We got drunk
and had sex. Then he stopped calling me... Anyway, we
danced together at the club and he tried to suggest that I
give him a blow job!! I was like "What the hell!!?". This
guy can't just dissapear for 3 months, and expect to get
some kind of action outta me. We went outside to "talk", and
then sat in his car... He totally tried to put the moves on
me, but I turned him down and told him that he
underestimated me. We ended up kissing, but I told him I
wanted to go back in the club. I ended up getting really
drunk... I didn't know anyone there, and Aleshia had left me
to go dance with her friend Julie. Things start to get kind
of fuzzy from here... I danced with some guy who tried to
teach me how to two-step. I'm not one for country music, or
country dancing, but it was fun... And then I ran into
Jonathan again. He saw that I was with another guy and I
think he was a little jealous. We kissed again and I think I
asked him to come home with me. I'm glad he didn't... I
would have totally regretted it. I decided I don't like him
at all... Aleshia told me that after he tried that shit with
me, he tried to dance up on her... Anyway, I went and sat
back down at the table with a bunch of people I didn't know.
Aleshia and Julie came and sat down, and next thing I know,
I feel something bust me upside the head!! I was like WHAT
THE FUCK!! I stood up and was like "Who the fuck threw
something at me!!!" Some guy had thrown an ashtray at
another girl at the table, and it it me instead!
oooooooooooh I was livid... I was drunk and already not
having a good night... The guy apologized a thousand times
and gave me a kiss on the lips. That kind of made me feel
better, but I still just wanted to go home...

The next night was St. Patrick's Day. I went to Bennigan's
with Cathy and Eric and Jackie. Bekah ended up showing up
later... She's not 21 yet, but I think she had a fake ID. We
got most of our beer for free that night because Rebecca was
bartending. I ended up coming home alone, and Cathy came
home with Derek... He's probably stayed the night at our
house 3 times since they hooked up at Bennigan's... Gross...

Friday night I went to Dallas to see Jason. We didn't really
do anything exciting... We sat around in his apartment and
drank beer with Trent and Trent's gf Claudia. We got drunk
and started kissing in front of Trent and Claudia because we
wanted them to leave. Eventually they got the hint... Jason
wanted to make me wait until I couldn't take it anymore for
us to have sex. We hadn't seen eachother in a month, and i
was ready for it. I changed into some little shorts and a
t-shirt, and we sat out on his balcony, drinking champagne.
Next thing I knew, he had pulled my shorts down and I was
sitting in his lap having sex with him right out there on
his balcony... I wonder if anyone saw us... It was really
hot. The rest of the night got a little strange. We got
really drunk and he was in the bathroom or something, and I
noticed a book on his nightstand... It was titled "Daily
Inspirations", so I thought, "awww... how sweet..." and I
opened it.. There were pictures of girls glued all
throughout the book!! They weren't magazine girls either,
they were real pictures. I got a little jealous, and when he
came in the room I was like "Hey, let's take a look through
this book!" and he turned off the light on me and walked
into the living room and said "How about we watch TV
instead!" So we went in the living room, and he had turned
on the playboy channel... I think I was giving him head or
something, and it really bothered me that he was watching
porn at the same time. I guess I was still a little
sensitive from finding that book earlier. Last thing I
remember was laying in his bed, and him coming up to me and
asking me if I was tired... I said "no...", and he said "are
you okay..." and I said "yeah, i'm just tired..." which made
no sence. but I woke up a few hours later feeling like a
jerk. I mean, it's not like he's my boyfriend. So we
snuggled, and then had some morning sex which was really
nice. We hung out and talked for a little while, and I took
a bath and got ready to go home. It was this morning where I
realized that I really liked him. I stood on the other side
of the bar while he made his coffee and we talked and I
looked into his eyes and thought they were so gorgeous. I
wish I could stare into those eyes more often... I just
don't get what the deal is with him. Every time I see him,
he tells me how hot he thinks I am and how I don't need to
be a stranger. We really could have something good... It
just needs a little more effort.

Saturday night, I didn't do anything. I got invited out to
another keg party at Tate's lake house, but I decided not to
go. I just stayed home and slept.

Sunday, Aleshia invited me to go out to her hometown of Mt.
Enterprise to a barbeque. It was fun and we got really
drunk, but it was waaaaay out in the country. I ended up
calling Jason. Of corse he was in bed, but he did call me
back in the morning. He said he was worried about me because
it sounded like I was in trouble. We talked later Monday
evening, but not for very long because he was going to the
gym. He didn't call me back.. He didn't call me at all for
the rest of the week. It wasn't until Thursday when I grew
some balls and sent him a txt msg, but I'll have to write
about that later. I forgot that it's my mother's birthday
today and I need to send her an ecard.




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