Inquiring minds want to know.....
2005-03-22 21:05:10 (UTC)

Break the Cycle

"For You"

To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said
The silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
Fuck you both. You sit and watch my life crumble and you do
nothing to help. all my life you've sent me away. Everytime
I got too hard to handle.. School to school, doctor to
doctor..home to home.. anything so you wouldn't have to
deal...when I needed you most you sent me 200 miles
away...Never a phone call or a visit... well fuck you...
FUCK YOU! I've done nothing to deserve this from you ... I
should've stopped caring a long time ago, but instead it
haunts me every day. Why can't you love me? Am I that
horrible? You make me feel that I am... Every time I look
in the mirror I wonder what I did wrong.. You make me want
to die. I feel that worthless to you... All I know is that
I'm going to break this cycle.. My children are never going
to have to wonder if their parents love them..NO child
should have to wonder...No child should be beaten or cursed
at.. no child should be sent away.. no child should be
ignored... And no child should be unloved....