Kalamity K

The Daily Chaos of Kalamity K
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2005-03-22 03:44:40 (UTC)

Alanis Morissette - That Particular Time

"That Particular Time" - Alanis Morissette

That Particular Time

my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was
to vanish
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my
boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat
and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts
that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in
what "us" meant

I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself….i am

you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no
distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what
you wanted
at that particular love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant
deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I
still left
at that particular time

[I think, in some parts of this, that she saw my life and
wrote about it...oh god...I listened to this on the subway
and had tears in my eyes and really had to fight it.
Thank god the stop was up in a couple short stops or it
could have been a big sad scene...[-sighs-]...I'm just so
sad...it's starting to slowly permeate everything...there
is so much I miss already...god I can't do this...I can't
fucking do this...more to the point - do I really want
to? [-sighstearssighs-] K2]


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