Lost_cold_alone

Flying on broken wings
2005-03-21 02:17:51 (UTC)

March 20

Dear diary,

Well today I woke up about 12:30pm, only because I went to
be so late last night. Well anyway, waking up I had about
3 hours to get ready and eat dinner before we left. I Had
dinner, then went upstairs and got dressed. I came down
once and got make-up on and did my hair. I then went
upstairs and got a skirt on, I felt really weird looking
and dressing like a real girl but thats about it. I came
downstairs and we all rushed off to go. It was really
wanting to go sooner, but dad and mum had to make Harry
brush his hair. We left and chris stayed at home and
played with the kids next door, he was happy so no one
complained.

Once there, After an hour drive in the car, we all went in
and Mum, Dad, and Harry sat down. I went off to take
pictures of people that I knew, and green team one. There
weren't many people that I could see that I knew. For the
place was cramed full, so I didn't have much luck. Soon
the doors closed and I went to sit with my family. We were
silent, as the first act went on. There were so many
little skit things, and plays. It was all very funny, and
more so when the little kids were the ones that had the
big roles using their attacks on our instructors.

After about 2 hours it was over, and everyone left. The
New Black Belts were up the top thanking everyone, and
showing themselves off. It was really good. I was happy,
as we left I took a picture of Harry and his award. I
forgot what the award was for, but I do remember that he
was part of the top 10% to get one, out of 28 thousand
kids. I was so proud of him.

Well the car ride went by fast, though it felt really slow
for the entire time I had to go to the restroom. Though
that was my fault for not going before we left. Once home
dad went right out to the store and Harry, and myself went
inside. Harry went to walk the dog, and Mum and I went to
start the dinner. I soon left after mum set them in the
oven, and I went to the computer. I printed off something,
and then went up to my room to read it. I turned on my
music, listening to "A whole new world" And I was happy. I
think I almost fell asleep after finishing reading. I was
a little confused though, cause then called me down. I
answered "Yes?" no answer, so I went downstairs and asked
again. He asked me if I could get the mac and cheese on,
and I said yes. I tried to get it on, but dad butted in,
and blamed me for having an attitued problem. I didn't
care until mum backed him up, and-... Well I don't want to
say more there.

After that happened I ran up to my room crying, a few
marks on my arms and face. I couldn't stand being in my
room that I was pushed to, so I ran to the bolchony. I sat
there crying, talking about running away. It must have
been a good 30mins before I was found. Dad came and talked
to me, telling me he was sorry, and sent me down to
dinner. I went, rather quickly for once. Sitting down I
started eating, then mum came over to me and hugged me.
Blaming dad for being the rude and crul one. I just
couldn't say anything, in fear that things might start up
again, and this time the kids were inside, so I just
stayed silent. I finished as they went out of the house to
take the car in for service. Now they are gone, and I am
here writing in you, and my brothers are watching "Lord Of
the Rings." But I will have to go soon, for I know they
will be home, and I'm not really supposed to be on the
computer... Well anyway...

One more thing though to the boy who said "You are not
just some girl in the world"- look again, for I am, I am
nothing special. I am just me. For the boy who said "I
don't care if you pick me, I just want you happy"- Thank
you... And for the boy who said " y? you shouldn't fear
what you feel"- Thats just it... I don't know what I
feel... Well night everyone. Take care

Amy- 8:18pm




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