Hazerdouschick33

Jazzy
2005-03-18 21:58:28 (UTC)

When you feel you cant go on..........

Something about this just really touched me, so i'm gonna
put it in here so i can read it when i need to.

"When You Feel You Can't Go On

I'm sorry that you're hurting so desperately right now. I
know how painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be,
how long the nights are. I understand how very hard hanging
on is, and how much courage it takes.

I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one
day, and slowly this despair will pass. The feelings you
fear you're trapped in will serve their purpose, and then
fade away. Difficult to imagine isn't it? Almost impossible
to believe when every cell in your body it seems cries out
in agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels
like the only thing in the whole world that can touch your
pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all this
time, the assurance that you will heal has become an empty,
broken promise.

Just let one tiny cell in your body continue to believe in
the promise of healing. Just one. You can surrender every
other cell to your despair. Just that one little cell of
faith that you can heal and be whole again is enough to
keep you going, is enough to lead you through the darkness.
Although it can't banish your suffering, it can sustain you
until the time comes for you to let your pain go. And the
letting go can only occur in it's own time, as much as we
would like to push the pain away forever.

Hold on. Hold on to appreciate the beauty of the earth, to
feel the songs of the birds in your heart, to learn and to
teach, to laugh a genuine laugh, to dance on the beach, to
rest peacefully, to experience contentment, to want to be
no other place but in the here and now, to trust in
yourself, and to trust your life.

Hold on because it's worth the terrible waiting. Hold on
because you are worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that
will follow you out of this darkness will be a tremendous
gift. Hold on because you have so much love and joy waiting
to be experienced. Hold on because life is precious, even
though it can bring terrible losses. Hold on because there
is so much that you can't now imagine waiting ahead on your
journey - a destiny that only you can fulfill. Hold on
although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you
want more than anything to let go sometimes, hold on even
though. Please hold on.

So much in life can be difficult, even impossible to
understand. I know, I know... So many of us have cried in
despair, why? why? why? and still the answers and the
comfort failed to show. Survival can be a long and lonely
road, in spite of all those who've stumbled down the path
before you. And it can be a treacherous, torturous journey -
so easy to get lost, and yet impossible to avoid even one
painful step.

And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for
so long cannot be seen, although eventually you'll begin to
feel its' warmth as you move forward. And forward you must
move in order to get through the hell of remembering, of
despair, of rage, of grief. Keep looking forward please.
Rest if you must, doubt your ability to survive the journey
if you have to, but never let go of the guide ropes,
although when you close your fingers around them, your
hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are
there.

When you're exhausted, when all you have to count on is a
weakened, weary faith, hold on. When you think you want to
die, hold on until you recognize that it's not death you
seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on, because this
darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on."









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