kiddo16

NaivetY & ChildhooD LefT BehinD
2005-03-16 16:33:44 (UTC)

dIsSaPoInTeD mYseLf...

Haiz... Feeling so tired lately. Maybe it's due to the
continuous effort to finish up my PBA project. Now,
finally it's done. I finally could lay back and relax a
little bit. However, it will not be long that I need to
frust about something else now.
I hate it. But then, it's my choice to continue my
studies. For as much as I hate it, I love it to the core.
People might say I am crazy to love to study and attend an
institution when I could now might as well go out and work
and earning money.
For now, what's bugging is my studies. I am so upset that
I did not work as hard as last semester. I should have
tries harder. I am capable to do much better than it is
now.
As for now, I really know that I am dead. I mean my
results is very bad. I don't know what to do now. I need
to try harder but then, still the question is am I able to
catch up to get to the desired results.
I'm so upset that I will getting at least a grade C in my
result slip. I've calculated all the marks and it's only
possible to get a grade C. To get a grade B, I need to
work triple hard to get at least 75 marks. I really know
for sure it's impossible to get a high marks such like
that. This is because we are talking about the final
paper. It's not like as though it's a common test. I
should have tried harder. Now, it's really hard to get to
that grade.
I've dissapointed people around me and foremost, myself.
I'm really surprised that the guys in my class thinks
highly of me. Syukur Alhamdullilah. However, I felt as
though I cheat their feelings. It's not like as though I
am that pro or clever like what they made me to be.
That's why I think I've dissapointed myself.




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