ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2005-03-14 17:46:36 (UTC)

ANxiety

ok, for some reason today i'm nervous. i was up til bout 1
last night reading different things on baby sites and
stuff, about induction and what to do to maybe speed up
the labor process. this morning when i woke up i was
really nervous. what if i've done something to her and
she's not healthy? what i have a stillbirth? i mean, i
pray and everything and i know God answers prayers but i'm
just so worried at this point. not even because she's late
though, i know due dates are never really exact, but i
don't know..i mean, maybe i hurt her before i knew i was
pregnant...we all know what i was into. or maybe i hurt
her with one of the blunts i smoked when i DID know i was
pregnant. with Jamyah i didn't worry because i didn't know
smoke with her pretty much during the whole pregnancy...i
want to go to the doctor and make sure everything is ok.
this is the worse. hopefully everything is alright
though..i'm just tired of waiting and i want her to be
here healthy and with no problems. i think i'ma call my
mom and have her pray for me, and just sit down and relax,
try to take my mind off of things...until next time, pz
ya'll.




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