ruby tuesday

pseudo whimical wild child riot grrl
2005-03-11 18:48:20 (UTC)

centenial peaks

i would definatly have to say that the worst part of the
whole hosptial stay was not the food, the food was really
good there, bu the showers and going to the bathroom were
the worst...since i was on suicide watch i could not do
anything by my self...like when i had to go to the
bathroom, i had to wear my hospital gown, but i put on a
sport tanktop and basketball shorts underneath, and i had
to haul my iv machine to the bathroom, then leave the doos
OPEN so they could make sure that i didn't do anything to
harm myself in the bathroom...now, the bathroom only had a
toilet in it, it didn't have a shower or anything, there
was one shower down that hall that people used...well, one
morning, my nurse asked me if i wantedd to take a
shower...i was lie great! that'll feel good, but little did
i know that the shower did not have a curtai, and my nurse
had to watch, because again i could hurt myself/ with what
i ask? choke myself with a bar of soap? what? i want to
take a shower be myself! i don't want anyone in there but
me! trust me, the last place i want to die is in a hospital
bathroom, or some shitty old hopsital shower...gross! but i
had to take a shower with my iv machine with my in there
and i just washed my hair, with my gown on...i got really
wet, but it beats being naked...after that, the hospital
sent their phychiatric nurse over to evaluate
me, and the bitch decided that i needed someplace to
get "help". well, without my knowledge, she has made
arrangements to send me to this place called centenial
peaks psychiatric hospital..i was going to leave at five in
the afternoon...my nurse by then was named cher...she was
really nice, she was the one who actually told me i was
going there...i started to get really depressed because i
DID NOT want to go to some crazy hospital, because i was
not crazy...she started to cry when i started to cry...it
was not like full on bawling, but tears...i was really sad.
when five rolled around, the hospital send an ambulence to
bring me there...how dramatic...my parents couldn't even
drive me there...two guys came, and they let me put on this
on the stretcher, like completely buckleing me in,
strapping me down...ok, i am a really weak 16 year old, its
not like i'm going to try and run from two big
guys...there's no reason to strap me down...continued
again..




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