blkdragon

grounded
2005-03-10 19:14:23 (UTC)

They slithered.... but snakes are better

Took my son to school this morning! He was still watching
Gladiator when I went to bed, at 2, this morning. He
talked to me about this girl that came to him, she told
him that she'd been raped, he wanted my advice; I began
asking questions. Why did she come to you? She said that
he was nice, his first inclination was to be the
protector, he didn't like the fact that I was on point. I
told him that she came to him (as a victim) just for that
fact, was she playing him, of course. There's something
she wants from him, she's telling herself that it's love,
because she's one of the confused; sex isn't love. She
knows the measure of his moral fibre, his initial focus
was on making her feel safe. His sense of moral
indignation leaves a need that he be assured the
perpetrator pays for his crime, yet he wasn't sure that a
crime had been committed. His instincts told him to
beware, now he wanted my input.
She went to the dorm of the football team, knowing their
reputation, she said a guy asked her to come over (for
what reason remains unknown); she got there and he put a
pillow over her face and assaulted her. Was it that simple
or was there more to it? What was so important in his dorm
room that she had to see it? How well did she know this
person? Didn't she understand that the territorial aspects
of the meeting didn't favor her safety? She'd approached
Joshua (initially) from a sexual perspective and now she
was crying wolf.
He told her that he'd take her to see someone that may be
able to help her, she asked if he'd stay with her during
the interview, he said yes. She told him that the
assailant threatened her with harming the people close to
her, told him that he'd confront her if he saw her in the
company of another male. Did she just put him at risk, or
on guard? I know that Joshua wouldn't be sleeping in her
company, he'll be scanning every male as a potential risk,
that will ensure his safety; of course all of this could
be a fabrication to bond them in some sick way. I told him
to watch her body language, if she maintains eye contact
(with him) during the interview, if she reaches to hold
his hand for support; then I'm inclined to believe that
she's playing him. If this had truly happened, she'd have
gone to the authorities, before calling him.
His boy (Chris Money) set him up with her, she's supposed
to be an acquaintance of his, why didn't she call him?
Told him that he needs to step to his boy, I'm sure Chris
knew of her potential to put on an act. It's pretty simple
to me, step away from the girl, too much drama in the
making. If it's just a simple matter of bustin her guts,
knock it out, be straight with her and let her know that
it's just physical and be done with it. The former is a
better idea, than the latter.
I know my son won't jump to that bait, he's going to be
looking at her with a slanted view, after today; he'll
probably keep her at a distance.
Finally got to burn the cd's, got carried away, there are
5 done and I still haven't gotten all the music I wanted
Pretty to hear; I also have a letter to write for her.
I'm seeing Kim online, daily, she can't IM and I didn't
want to anyway; her computer is set to record those
conversations. I'm sure her phone usage is being monitored
also, one of the disadvantages of being with someone
that's not trustworthy, they can't trust anyone. She's
back in her prison, she's willing to do her time, for now;
whatever it takes to get to where she wants to be. I don't
see her deception as a bad thing, considering her Husband
deceived her, one needs to understand the rules of the
game in order to play it.
If it were a real relationship, the games wouldn't be
necessary, the truth would be the foundation of their
relating; there'd be no fear, just love. Evil hides in
many guises, his is religion, that isn't true for all the
converts; but it seeming to be the norm these days. She's
contacted me via email, I was missing her, she's hard at
work on her website; "making money with her hands", her
words. She's told me that a good house needs a strong
foundation, which she's building, she wasn't talking about
the house she shares with her Husband. Since he's using
her, she's decided to use him, being with him has changed
her life dramatically; she's learned that sometimes we
need to make the best of a bad situation.
I made employment inquiries, the best of them was the
Realtor's assistant, the company that's been trying to
sell the house; I have an appointment with the owner
Saturday morning. I feel good about this! I've met the
man, when he's brought prospective buyer's through my
home, I think I have a lot to offer his business; we'll
see what happens. There's Fed Ex and Target, both paying
well for the slot available and a few other possibilities
that may open a door or two. I also called a telemarketer
for a part time slot. A couple of the jobs have specific
details about applying, only in designated areas, at
designated times; so I'll have to wait before checking on
them.
In the meantime, I have clothes to iron for the interview
with the realtor, wheels to clean for the rink and music
to burn for Toya. I'll continue Pretty's when I return
home, I expect to send the first installment before the
weekend's over. The roll tonight will be highly charged,
got a lot of new music, I'll even be on time.




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