blkdragon

grounded
2005-03-03 22:20:16 (UTC)

Intense attractions, magnetic

Not too bad a day, I'm under a microscope, these people
look at me as though I'm going to come to work with a gun
and start bustin at them; funny. I'm merely distancing
myself for the time when I walk away. Kenny hung around me
all day, wanting to talk, I was and am always too busy to
talk to someone willing to watch me humpin without getting
in the mix. I didn't look as though I was receptive and
he'd walk away, trying to hide his concern, I don't need
him to do my thing and I believe he knows that I'm not
planning to hang around; hell, I've said this aloud to him.
Now if I were feeling postal, I'd want to take out the
opposition by hand, I think guns are cowardly and I don't
believe anyone there can handle me head up; not really a
concern though. I don't go out of my way to be aggressive
and most people don't mistake my meekness for weakness,
I'd rather be quiet, peaceful. I think everyone sees the
storm behind the calm in me, thankfully, none choose to
push the envelope.
My Sun, Shawn, called; he wants me to come to Kingston
this weekend. When I spoke to him today, I thought it was
Friday, told him I'd call him later and let him know the
deal. I told Shawn that I didn't have any money earmarked
for the gas usage necessary for a trip to Kingston; he
told me he'd give me the money I need.
I have a hard time with people doing things for me, I
realize that I need to allow the people that want to do
for me an opportunity to do so, it's just never been easy
for me. I think it's got something to do with not wanting
to feel vulnerable or needy. Shawn's my boy, he and Toya
worry about me, their love for me moves me to tears; I
realize they miss me and I miss them very much.
My Tarot tells me that I need to go
The Sun

It's all good today. You are dynamic, magnetic, youthful,
and full of vitality, and this may be a perfect time to
relax and bask in the warmth of love and sensuality. Wrap
up what you are doing and plan a getaway or retreat away
from the mundane, and don't be surprised by a pregnancy,
engagement, marriage, consummation, a liberating break up,
or other creative manifestation of life, beauty, or the
arts, as something which was hidden becomes illuminated by
your light. Your romantic enthusiasm may be contagious,
and others may see you as "glowing."
This stuff is getting a bit too close to the truth.

I started my day with boundless energy, started pulling
the muscles behind my ribs and got my brace on, caught a
second wind and got busy. Kenny did more to assist than
usual and everyone seemed to pass my area to observe. I
had planned to call Louisa during my lunch, was talking to
Shawn instead, I'm thinking of calling her before I head
to the rink tonight; bringing her to my home for the talk.
I need to check on Joshua's schedule for the night, don't
want him around if she decides to come here for the talk,
she's never been in my place socially and I'm sure she's
wondered why? I certainly don't want her believing that
she's coming here to be seduced, nothing could be farther
from the truth, she'll have her opportunity to respond;
mostly, she'll be listening. I won't be wasting any time
getting to the meat of the matter. I don't want her to be
afraid, I'll always see her as a special friend of mine
and I'd still do anything for her, except be her pet.
Meant to call my landlord and sell him my time to offset
what I owe him for the rent, a couple of days should
handle the balance, he'll pay me what I earn on my job;
couldn't see working for him full time, no insurance.
We've done this before, he's just bought a new building
and I'm sure he doesn't have enough employees to get the
place up to snuff in the time-frame he's envisioned. I'll
call him tomorrow, he hasn't bugged me about my
outstanding balance, that's magnanimous of him; seeing how
greedy he is.
I'm rerecording a cassette for the rink tonight, I'm late
doing the music for Pretty, want it to be perfect; got to
review quite a bit of music for that. There are specific
reed pieces I want her to hear, most of it will be
instrumental, music to bring her heart and mind to an
oasis of peace and hope; it would be even better if I can
put them on a CD. We'll see!
The car is handling infinitely better, feeling sorry for
my Son's not paying enough attention to stop costing
himself so much, missing my Son Charles also; such is Love.
Need to eat, clean my wheels, wash and head out.
Hey C, it's pronounced DePow, yes? Shun, when we get
together it'll be all good! Pretty, thanks for thinking of
me, mmmwah.
I'm out!




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